I can't join the Matrix server. When I try registering with the server chat.blahaj.zone and blahaj-20250508 I just get a 500 Internal Server Error response from the server. I tried different username/password combinations in case there was an issue with special characters, but nothing seemed to change. Instead I registered with matrix.org and was able to get accepted. I'm learning how to use Matrix, but I'm getting the hang of it a bit. I'll try and find the HRT room :)
Are you comfortable describing where you source your Estradiol Enanthate and anti-androgens? I am looking at Open Gate Labs since they ship from the US and I live in the US. But I can't find any sources that are selling Bicalutamide. Each seller is out of stock or saying they aren't shipping due to the Trump tariffs. I don't really want to go on Spiro since they say it's weaker and then the side effects of Cyproterone acetate scare the heck out of me (e.g., benign brain tumors).
In my experience, my wife flip flops a bit between accepting and feeling sad about it. Sometimes our conversations are similar to yours: practical, forward thinking, assuming I'll transition, etc. Other times, our conversations are more reflective, sadder, concerned about the future, uncertain about my transition, etc. We've decided to put a pause on conversations about it. As you can see from my post history, I'm still leaning towards HRT, but I'm running into a lot of insurance blockers that make it difficult. I'm now considering the DIY route, but it's kinda complicated looking. Not too bad, but it requires learning a lot of stuff I was hoping my doctors would figure out for me.
I hope your journey goes well! I'll probably be on this community fairly frequently over the coming months.
Thanks for the guide. It sounds like it's mostly a cost based issue then? The DIY route seems a bit more expensive than insurance, but it's fairly reasonable.
How do you handle injections? I feel like it'd be super hard to put a needle in me. I've never done something like that before.
Edit I watched a video on how to do it. Doesn't actually look too bad. I hate needles, but for some reason the 45deg. angle and pinching the skin made it seem less daunting.
That's fair. I can try giving them a call, but most of my experience on UHC phone trees end up frustrating and unhelpful.
Kahless in Payless 😎
I just finished the first climb of the mountain. Awesome game. So stressful though lol
It's true you know.
The most generous assumption is that they use statistics to determine correlations like this (e.g., deleted selfies resulted in a high CTR for beauty ads so they made that a part of their algo). The least generous interpretation is exactly what you're thinking: an asshole came up with it because it's logical and effective.
Either way, ethics needs to be a bigger part of the programmers education. And we, as a society, need to make algorithms more transparent (at least social media algorithms). Reddit's trending algorithm used to be open source during the good ole days.
It's nice to know that they don't even have the propensity to care if I'm trans. They aren't perfect (my cat is a gremlin and my dog loves to dig), but I don't care. They are the best. My dog and cat have comforted me in my worst moments.
We are so lucky to live in a world where pets exist. Domesticated animals weren't a guarantee for us; especially cutesy predators. It's pretty awesome that we have mini wolves and tigers that hang out with us. Their love is pure <3
Thanks for your help! I ended up picking monotherapy and going on the matrix subreddit to double check my plans for DIY HRT.