Personally, I went to therapy on Friday and my therapist said "we are in crisis mode". I'm still new to my transition and even though that language is scary, it was very affirming to recognize that - yes - I'm scared and uncertain and learning a lot of things all at once. My life is changing. She also said "get used to feeling uncomfortable", which is so hard for me. But her recognition of some hard facts about my current situation grounded me and gave me a courage to try some more daring things as part of my pre-HRT transition.

I am a woman.

I got my third generation of skinny jeans. That is, when I started transitioning, I bought the tightest jeans I could fit into. Then I lost weight, and they got too loose to wear, even with a belt. Repeat x 2.

My legs looked fucking hot today.

My spouse took me shopping this weekend! I followed her around the stores and she riffled through the racks while I made small gestures or comments. It's the little things that help the most early on, like having the right clothing! I started injection monotherapy last week and the physical changes kicked in. After going for a run I realized I have to wear sports bras now, so it helps a lot to actually have the right clothing. It's both a physical and mental necessity at this point. If I could get the insurance coverage for my electrolysis moving, I think I might actually be ready to start going out in public as myself for the first time ever.