Been sending job applications without getting responses for a while, and now Im booked all week with interviews. Its too early to celebrate, but damn I did not think id get this far
Pretty bad. I was feeling sickish till Thursday, so I couldn't work out. On Friday I finally worked out but felt so bored and empty afterwards that I went hiking for 3h. Still bored I drank myself to sleep. Woke up hangover on Saturday only to find out that my favorite event of the year happens that evening and I am in a terrible state. Tried to go anyway and aborted after 1h and drank myself to sleep once again. Sunday culminated in a very bad mental state. I reached a new low. Lets hope it's only temporary.
Sending an internet hug :)
🫂 Drinking youself to sleep sounds bad. I hope you get better
Realized that if i don't get some form of mental health treatment i am never going to successfully get another job. I no longer have health insurance in a few days.
I've dipped into my equivalent of retirement savings to last me the foreseeable future, make a couple major purchases i frankly should've done years ago (why tf are mattresses and bed frames so damn expensive?!) for quality of life, and have some semblance of easily accessible emergency funds. No credit card debt and car has been paid off.
My chair is quite broken but under warranty, a replacement is on its way in.... like a week or so. Entire chair leans at an angle in every direction balanced on the gas spring 🙃
I'm not unhappy and that confuses and alarms me?
Welp, bed frame went to shit. Got it, moved it all up stairs, got it all assembled, went to move it into place... and one of the joints broke.
Its at this point i look into the return policy and its functionally "ship back at customers cost"...
overall better than the week before!
went to my local trans support group for the second time (since moving here), and I was a lot more relaxed and at ease
have been feeling blue and even having moments of mental health crisis due to feeling worthless after I lost my job
need to work on feeling happy and stabilizing my mood - but I might just need time to adjust
I don't know if you need to hear this from an outside source, but...
Your worth as a person isn't based on your job! You have been a beacon of light here and a huge help to people like me looking for examples of joy in the cruel world. I'm glad you're here doing what you do, and being you. Jobs come and go (and that sucks!) but you're more than just a contribution to capitalism. 🫂
Absolutely second the beacon of light thing!! You're great! (Both of you hehe)
Marriage went from "I guess we'll figure this out" to "who gets the house" rather quickly...
Oh well, maybe I can find someone new who's into women.
Very quiet and sleepy! I'm usually very active socially but this week was just fall fatigue completely overwhelming me. I didn't have work this week which meant I slept 9-10 hours a day and stayed in bed until noon most days. Oh well. Fallow season, I guess. The good thing is that I don't feel that bad about it! I usually do. I installed tinder on Saturday and had two first dates this week, one terrible, one great (see my post). Other than that, life is very quiet right now. I'm waiting to hear back on a job, I'm waiting to hear back from my insurance, I'm waiting for my degree to end. I'm trying to be appreciative and thankful for this time. I have a roof over my head, I have enough money to live, I see people every day.
Oh, and I bought a cute new lamp that's made my room even more comfy :3
probably good you're getting sleep - seems like a lot of people are getting sick with the weather changes
glad you don't feel bad about sleeping, I can relate to that
hope you get the job and everything goes well!
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Trevor Project: crisis mental health services for LGBTQ people, lots of helpful information and resources: https://www.thetrevorproject.org/
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