the US is feeling more spicy for us trans folks, which is not great 😰

It's been a heck of a week. I'm in Texas visiting family and helping with some remodeling at the family place out in the country, which has been OK for me as a transfem enby so long as I don't deviate too far from my usual boy(ish)mode. Currently exhausted from ripping out rotten floorboards, and gonna be even more exhausted as I resume my job hunt tomorrow.

Been taking a break from my job search, for my mental health. I get fairly many interviews, but generally just "we have decided to go with someone else" kind of responses. I found a report saying 43% of trans women have work in my country, compared to 85% of cis women, and now I wonder...

It was my first full week of living as myself full time and it's starting to feel normal now. No more being stressed about how I want to present when I go outside, just being me. So pretty great here :)

This week has actually been really good for me! If anyone read my post last week, I had a pretty rough time of it then, having had a date flake on me and having a friend not talking to me. Well, this week I've sorted things out with that friend of mine, we had a lovely chat at the queer climbing night we both attend, I also went for a great meal out with my climbing friends which was super nice!

On the date front, I matched with an extremely cool and gorgeous enby on the dating app I use, we got chatting and clicked pretty much instantly. We're nerdy about similar things and have very compatible senses of humour, we've genuinely been messaging pretty much nonstop since we matched and today we had a first date which... holy crap, I didn't think it was possible for a first date to go as well as it did 😍 we went to a super cool barcade, drank mocktails, flailed around in co-op arcade games together, laughed, chatted, won each other plushies from a claw machine and just generally had a whale of a time. We went for bubble tea afterwards and ended up kissing in the boba shop, it was amazing!

In general life news, next week is going to mark my 5th tranniversary! 5 whole years of being out and living as myself, which feels like kind of a big milestone. It feels like I'm starting to turn a corner in my life, feeling more confident and comfortable with myself these days after a pretty big mental health wobble recently. I'm finally starting to feel like I'm actually worthy and deserving of good things happening to me, and they are starting to happen 😊

So far, this week has been okay.

I've walked 12 hours this week, lost a kilo.

I've done my daily routine 4 out 7 days (due to the walks)

Still wish I could wear what the dress I bought which is too small for me. (3xl Eu size)

But I've been too obsessed by my weight sadly.

Work's been slow, money's been scarce