I try to find the courage to do some small task everyday and then do more in the week-end.
Hard to have energy left. I push through to do a little bit of sports almost everyday too. I cannot fathom what parents go through everyday.
I may add even without an option to turn back I would.
Awesome game FNV. I should replay it. (Even though it's harder for me to find the will to play video games now. Been better lately)
Then I don't really know what to say about depression. I've lived some hard times with it struggling with body issues and addiction (well mine is about sugar... I can't say it's the same as you but it never helped about my weight and liver). And my mom had some mental health issues that probably affected me too.
It's hard to find a reason to keep fighting. I struggled 3 years in university failing and at some point I started just going to the gym instead hiding from my parents that I didn't go to university. Mine was trying hard to fix myself and trying a fresh start ( I don't know how I started). But the turning point was when I met my wife I've met 8 years ago. I didn't even fathom my transidentity (I've been really dense and was probably running away from it.). At first I didn't know her troubles and then I had to stay strong to support her and pushing away my troubles to help her. (No that wasn't healthy for me...)
I can't really tell you how I've been handling this, there's ups and downs throughout our relationship, but so far I'm not taking any meds even though it would probably have been easier. Maybe I was running away from psychiatrist because I've never found one that I would consider safe?
Anyway, I think love made me push this far. I don't know if I will be happy with the changes of my body with HRT, but I keep hoping. At least even though if I'm not entirely happy with myself I know it will still be better than before. And mostly people will find beauty where you would not about yourself. It's hard to love myself but when I see my wife loving me and the way I look even though sometimes I loathe the way I look, well I glad someone can appreciate me this way.
I don't know if this message makes sense or will help but that's a sum up of my experience.
I feel targeted π«£ I have some ideas but I feel I'm missing something. Like there was a name I can't remember from something I watched or read that influenced and would be right.
Wish I knew sooner to but better late than never βΊοΈ
Awesome change though, in almost 2 months in.
I don't have any advice about it since I've never lived anything like it. Here's a virtual hug π«
I'm a bit jealous. You look great βΊοΈ
Oh... I'm already doing that with my wife and in any case I'm always sitting down. I thought it was more commun to do that.
I mean I always thought it was more hygenic to prevent the "splash zone"...
ππ I'm leaning toward the right side now.
I'm in this image and I don't... Well I am in it.
I haven't yet done my social transition (nor medical yet but soon). I can only imagine what you feel.
Wishing you the best (at least the best it can be right now), all I can offer is virtual hug π€
They do ππ