I have, more or less, lost all hope for my transition. I am the same place now as I was ten months ago. I don't sound right, I don't look right, I don't feel right. Everyone else is moving on further and faster, and seems to be getting more results from less work.

I just want to go in to hiding and let everyone forget I exist.

Was interesting to find out that I am trans last week. I won't get to do shit about it till I move out for university in a year(I will be 19) but I have a supportive group of friends so coming out to them wasn't too bad. Plan is to start DIY and also start with a therapist and eventually move to offical channels.

I just wanna cuddle

has been okay actually!!! got to relax and talk wif friens and have fun yeyyyyy!

Amazing. I have friends and I feel good and capable of doing what i'm supposed to and it all just feels so nice i'm rolling in it like a pup.

I feel like i'm finally getting to the top of mazlow's pyramid and all the therapy and effort are paying off big time.

Now if only my wife was attracted to women things would be perfect.

Read Infinity Alchemist. Hit a bit too close to home relationship-wise.

Weather is finally cooling off and I'm sleeping better as a result 🫠

Can't stand summer as a season, looking to try to move further north in the next couple years (don't wanna still be in Ohio by the time I'm 30), not in the cards this apartment-lease-renewal. Want to not live in a red-state too.

Had my appointment at the gender clinic at last! Blood test to check my karotype, then if there are no problems he'll prescribe as much injectable estradiol, progesterone and so on as I want 😁 A much better result than I was expecting -- I can live with a few weeks' wait until I get the results.

Dr: "Have you tried more feminine clothes, make up and so on?"
Me, wearing full foundation, eyeliner and mascara: natural-style make up success! Guess my current not-too-obvious style is actually not-feminine-at-all...

Doing okay I guess. Got harassed on Twitter yesterday by some right wing chud claiming that I'll always have male genitals (really hope he's wrong and I'll be able to get surgery in the future 😭 )