Obviously one is fear. I am 30 years old. Am married and have three kids. I’m worried about my own future, as well as the future of my closest.

I hope you get support from them. I started opening up to my wife after one of my kids was born because we had a lot of arguments, we went to therapy and there at the end we discussed a lot of things, one of them being I was extremely dysphoric during her pregnancy, and even after that, I felt a lot of pain. We talked about it, she was very supportive on the topic, we made an agreement that I start transitioning when it's required or at latest when I'm 40. When I was 36 she kinda pushed me to start transitioning, I was in a bad a shape in all possible ways. That was years ago. Both kids and my wife are very supportive, we are all happy, and NONE of us would ever consider revert to "the old life". Even when local politics and government forced me to stop taking meds (jailed one of the doctors who did care about us), when they passed bills to criminalise my existence, I was thinking about aborting it for the safety of our kids, and life. They were still there and supported me, and they told me don't even think about it.

tl;dr: 30 years old is NOT old at all. I hope your family supports you like mine did.

This prompted me to read the gender dysphoria bible myself.

A classic gender dysphoria trope is the kid who wears nothing but sweatpants and hoodies.

Me sitting here reading it in sweatpants and a hoodie lol.

The best time to transition was 14-16 years ago. The second best time is right now!

Take small steps. If it feels right keep going.

It's natural to be afraid of change, but I can tell you from someone in her 40's, it's never too late. Your family will love you for who you are, and your identity is something that YOU know. Life gets better when you can be yourself. Don't do what I did and wait a decade to do something about it. There are people everywhere just like us and we help each other. There are professionals who can help you, and this path has been blazed by many before us. Stay on it, find yourself, and life gets so much better from there. Congratulations, sister!

Love that you are able to have the small win of existing as a woman here, congrats! I am in a similar demographic to you, but with fewer children.

I came out to my wife in February last year, and it was one of the scariest things I've ever done. We are still together, love each other more than the day we were married, and I am seeing a doctor on Tuesday about starting HRT. Obviously I don't know how things would go with your spouse, but I hope they would at least be sympathetic to what you're dealing with and be open to talking more with you.

It's okay to take things slow, you don't need to rush anything. I wish I had started transitioning 10+ years ago, but I am so thankful for the family and life I have that allows me to do so today.

Keep asking questions, keep being open to learning new things about yourself, and don't settle for a new box for people to put you in if it isn't quite right for you.

Welcome to the club sister!

And personally, I just think of euphoria as joy. Which you have every right to as a living being. It's like oxygen. We all need it to be happy and healthy.

So, somewhat relevant anecdote: I cracked my egg at age 27-28ish with 2 kids. I had a lot of the same anxieties you're describing here, which led me to try to repress for around 5 years before ultimately starting to transition at age 33 after my 3rd kid was born. It took almost ending myself twice to finally convince me that I really just had to do it. Because, even in the worst case, a trans mom is better than a dead dad for my kids every time. I'm now a year and a half into my transition and the only regret I have now is not starting sooner.

Hey there, I have two things for you!

1. 30 is definitely not "too old" or anything if you were thinking that. I started transitioning with 33 and its a wonderful feeling

2. if you want to, you can click this link and see what happens...

https://turnmeintoagirl.com/

Fear is common, change is scary, and you are not alone. In my experience, the first few weeks after realizing that you're trans feel the most scary. I had the same fears about 'what is my family going to think?' I'm a young'un so, I don't have a spouse and children like you do, but I know that coming out to family is scary, and that it might be hard at first, but if they love you they will likely come around eventually, some people just need time to process. Although I have no experience with coming out to a partner, I do wish you the best of luck and I hope it works out well for you!

congratulations! :)

Good for you!

40 y.o. ex-egg here, married with a daughter. A little over half a year into transition and things are workIng out ok so far.