[-] applebusch 3 points 11 hours ago

Man I know horns would be so inconvenient in many ways, but they just look so sick. I really want some.

[-] applebusch 13 points 23 hours ago

See the answer is to remove the edge cases. We make a special road for only self driving cars. No human traffic lights, no pedestrians, just flawless roads. While we're at it let's make a special road that the cars couldn't fall off of if they tried. That will make lane keeping trivial so the cars just need to go straight. We can even make the special road steer for them. Actually since they're all going the same way we can tie them all together so we only need one engine and can save money hehehe. We'll make self driving so easy bro.

[-] applebusch 32 points 4 days ago

I wonder if it's really the swearing. It would be interesting to compare to nonverbal grunting or groaning around the same intensity. Something similarly emotive and forceful but without the underlying language meaning.

[-] applebusch 2 points 4 days ago

Yeah this year has been mostly stress and existential dread for me. It's so fun watching the US descend further into fascism in real time from the inside while part of 2 marginalized groups being actively othered/politicized.

[-] applebusch 5 points 4 days ago

I like having my own place but I could still fingerbang you ironically

[-] applebusch 2 points 4 days ago

Don't forget progesterone. Evidence supporting its efficacy for breast growth in combination with estrogen has been mostly anecdotal but there is some recent work substantiating it clinically.

[-] applebusch 4 points 5 days ago

You're not going to believe this. I already have both. What do I get? Super audhd?

[-] applebusch 2 points 5 days ago

More like enjoying something is a sin. Sexual pleasure? Straight to hell. Food pleasure? Straight to hell. Get enough sleep so you don't feel like shit? Believe it or not, straight to hell. Enjoy your work? Turbo hell.

[-] applebusch 1 points 6 days ago

Hmm yes coziness is four cats I see. So you're saying I need more cats. I thought so.

[-] applebusch 41 points 2 months ago

The longer I dwell in this cursed existence the more clear it becomes that consciousness is no gift. Conscious minds are slaves to meat. Our bodies make our minds, then demand endless servitude through constant screams of pain, hunger, heat, cold, pleasure, fatigue, itch, and on and on and on. We exist only so long as we serve, and if we serve poorly they make us suffer.

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If there were no restrictions other than physics and you could have any body you want. Like four arms, elf ears, snake lower body, double vagina, whatever you want. I've been thinking about how I want to change my body a lot lately and it's got me wondering what people would want if they could really choose. Look like a specific celebrity? Be a real life anime girl? Be an amorphous shifting mass as free-form as thought? Be a giant space station? I just keep wondering what bodes we would choose if we really had the choice.

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So excited to be on the road again.

[-] applebusch 88 points 3 months ago

Actually we don't get cubicles anymore since everyone went with open office plans.

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I'm trying to find somewhere to store my sperm for fertility preservation before I start estrogen. Anyone got any recommendations in or near the bay area?

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submitted 4 months ago by applebusch to c/mtf

I just started HRT a couple weeks ago and I've noticed that my nose is the clearest it's been in my adult life. I always used to have some resistance when breathing through my nose and I had a perpetually runny nose, but basically the day after starting HRT it was much better and I even sound less nasally when I talk. I was just wondering if anyone else noticed something similar. I'm doing estradiol injections and oral progesterone.

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submitted 8 months ago by applebusch to c/mtf

I keep thinking about the experience of feeling body envy towards cis women. Since I cracked my egg I've started to notice I have two distinct sets of feelings towards cis women, which can sometimes overlap, one being romantic/sexual desire and the other being envy for their body and femininity. I think for a long time I conflated those feelings and thought I felt sexual desire towards women who really I just wanted to be, and at other yet more unfortunate times didn't recognize my sexual desire for someone as such due to the lack of envy. It's made me wonder how much of my sexual life and awakening has been colored by my desire to be the women I thought I just wanted to bone. Definitely some at least.

[-] applebusch 37 points 1 year ago

A secret I've become aware of. When you are your true authentic self, people will like you more, whatever your true authentic self happens to be. Do you queen 💗

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