I started hormones around 9 months ago and a few months ago felt like I couldn't stand my job for one more second and quit. I've been applying to jobs in my field, and I'm getting interviews consistently. Every single time so far I've eventually gotten this horrible feeling like I don't want anything to do with the company or the people who work at them. This has resulted in me... lets say not bringing my A game to the interviews because frankly I don't even want these jobs, so I haven't gotten any offers.

Idk what to do at this point other than keep trying and hoping someone decides to give me a chance. I've thought about changing careers, but I'm in my 30s so it feels a little late. Part of me can't imagine staying in my field anymore, the people are just so gate keepy and elitist, but I also can't imagine anything else being better...

What were y'alls experience after hormones? Did you change careers, stay? Did things work out?

I haven't noticed much so far but today I had some ketchup for the first time in a while and it tasted amazing, like just normal ketchup was so good I could eat it by itself. I really hope my tastes on more things change. I've heard some people start liking coffee. I hope I get that because I always loved the smell but hated the taste.

Think of it as a radical body modification. Suppose someone wasn't really a fan of having hair at all and wanted to just not. Most of the scientific research on hair loss has been about stopping or reversing it, but in all that research have we learned whether we could cause it to happen on purpose? I don't mean conventional hair removal, and I don't mean laser or electrolysis which both have significant limitations and wouldn't be feasible for total hair loss on the entire body.

I mean like a vaccine for hair, an injection someone could take that would cause their immune system to attack all their hair follicles in the same way we see in alopecia universalis, so they have literally no hair at all anywhere on their body permanently. It feels like it should be possible, especially now with the increasing use of mRNA vaccines.

I found a fun website where you can generate a custom pride flag! It has lots of gender/sexuality options and you can even do custom colors. Mine is transfeminine as the primary, with aromantic and bi-lesbian (which I had to do custom).

https://www.teamultima.org/flag/

I myself experience sexual attraction to both masculine and feminine people, leaning strongly toward feminine, but I have a hard time imagining myself being with a binary man. It feels a bit awkward to identify as a bi woman sometimes because my sexual attraction for men just kind of exists, yet I don't feel entirely comfortable identifying as a lesbian for the same reason. I just learned about the bi-lesbian flag/identity and it feels more right to me because I don't want to erase by bisexuality, even if I never choose to act on my sexual attraction to men. Curious what others think.

For context I have audhd. I've always been confused about the association between stacking toys and autism. I don't particularly remember stacking toys as a kid other than of course I did because I was a kid. Don't lots of kids try to stack stuff as high as possible occasionally? Why is this seen as an autistic trait? Is it a stereotype due to the historical bias towards autistic boys with a particular presentation or something else? If it really is associated with autism and not a bias, why do autistic kids do it more?

Hey y'all. Just wanted to vent a bit. I've been feeling really down lately, mostly because lately it feels like no matter what I do or how hard I try I can't seem to make people understand me. It doesn't really seem to matter if I'm talking to another neurodivergent person or not, people just assume they know what I'm saying and run with it. It just keeps happening and it's been creating more and more conflict at work, with my friends, with random people I have to deal with day to day. I feel so much like a fucking alien lately, like I'm speaking some language that no one around me understands but thinks they do. I had a meltdown the other day at a work friend who just could not stop for half a second to listen to what I was saying. I don't know if it's something I'm doing, I'm sure people will read this and assume that it is. At this point it doesn't even matter it just feels so pointless to even try. I want to cry with how badly I want someone to just listen to what I'm saying and try to actually understand. Like literally that's all I want, but it never seems to happen these days. I feel like it's going to cost me my job and friends. I feel like I'm going to lose everything and have to start my life over again somewhere else. I see how this is really a me problem. It's not fair but the burden is on me to make people understand what I'm saying. I see how my lack of energy and motivation to do so is making it impossible for me. I want to put forth the effort but I just have nothing left. I fucking hate myself for that, even knowing it's not really my fault. Thanks for reading if you got this far. This was stream of consciousness.