[-] applebusch 2 points 2 hours ago

yes, but also maybe 2 or 3 more girls and 5 or 10 more cats? but maybe im thinking too small hmm...

[-] applebusch 1 points 2 hours ago

this is my perspective too. i kind of relate it to my autistic masking. i used to do fencing and had spent literally years of my life with one of the other fencers, and we ended up taking over the club together when the previous coach retired. one time he invited me to a little house party with some friends, and afterward he said he had never seen me act the way i did at the party before, like he was shocked at how different my behavior was (not in a bad way i think). he had only ever seen me in the context of fencing, so there were huge parts of my personality he had never interacted with, and seeing a glimpse of the larger me showed him he really didnt know me as well as he thought.

i think of my transition the same, like all the stuff coming out now was always there but i never showed it to anyone, so some people are going to be surprised, or shocked, or angry, or happy, or whatever because im showing them that they didnt really know me that well. or maybe not because some of my friends were completely unsurprised lol.

[-] applebusch 2 points 3 hours ago

"we dont want to exploit you any less because we think that would be slightly less good for us, and also fuck you"

[-] applebusch 17 points 10 hours ago

gross why would anyone want a fucking chatbot automoderating their server? thats just giving all your chat to an ai company. fuck off with this trash.

[-] applebusch 44 points 10 hours ago

somewhere before 4000cc. carrying that around on your chest looks like it would cause some serious damage to your body.

[-] applebusch 17 points 18 hours ago

its basically i regret not transitioning sooner, but my biggest regret is wasting so much time acting like an introvert. i spent so much time at home doing stuff basically to pass the time rather than going out and taking social risks. i could have been doing everything i dreamed of that whole time even if it was scary. maybe i would have found myself sooner if i did idk. but im not sure i would have been able to before i started transitioning.

[-] applebusch 12 points 18 hours ago

when you want everyone on the apps to know youre a bottom lol. those shorts look super cute on you. slay girl :3

[-] applebusch 27 points 18 hours ago

the real answer is paying really close attention to her responses, having a general idea of where on a womans body it feels good to touch, and being motivated and enthusiastic to make her feel good. sometimes i get in the zone and it almost feels like i can feel what theyre feeling. empathy goes such a long way its crazy.

[-] applebusch 24 points 22 hours ago

such a cute little mustache!

[-] applebusch 6 points 22 hours ago

just want to chime in to point out that often doctors are major sources of misinformation about trans care, even so called trans care specialists. some of the things people have said doctors told them on here are ridiculous. this sounds like a remnant of advice based on estrogens harvested from pregnant horse urine, which did have clotting issues because of the presence of estrogens not normally present in the human body. modern bioidentical estrodiol doesnt have the same issue at all. you probably shouldnt trust anything you hear from a doctor at face value without some corroborating sources to back it up.

[-] applebusch 16 points 1 day ago

dam i need some real sex

[-] applebusch 43 points 1 day ago

frotting huh 👀

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thats all. its fucking great. i love it so much. before i started transitioning i was worried it wouldnt help anything, or that id have to wait years to feel any real gender euphoria, but i didnt even have to wait that long at all. even the small amount of femininity ive gained is so fucking amazing.

i love being a woman

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a polite young lady (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
submitted 1 week ago by applebusch to c/cat@lemmy.world

her name is callisto

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fit i wore to an event (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
submitted 1 week ago by applebusch to c/trans_joy

first time wearing this outside so was kinda nervous, but i think it worked :3

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i kinda want to go to a bar and socialize with strangers, but i have like no idea what im doing. i didnt really before transitioning but now i feel completely lost. if anyone could give me like a basic outline of the social etiquette it would help so much. i realize this is probably the most autistic question i could ask. it gives me so much anxiety even going to a bar, let alone trying to talk to someone.

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how bout a silly selfie? (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
submitted 2 weeks ago by applebusch to c/trans_joy

my hair is a weird length atm and will just stay up lol

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submitted 2 weeks ago by applebusch to c/mtf

i realize this might be a controversial question. i just had this experience a few weeks ago watching a random youtube video and it keeps popping into my head. im not going to link it or even describe the content because i really dont want to be perceived as even tangentially shaming anyone. i was watching this video and at a certain point i just couldn't continue watching because a man in the video was giving me serious gender dysphoria.

its hard to tell what exactly was even making me feel that way. i think it was maybe the clothes he was wearing and just his overall presentation reminded me of when i was an egg doing my best impersonation of a man but feeling so incredibly horrible the whole time. ive never really felt that way about someone before but it kinda makes sense as like the opposite of gender envy maybe?

idk maybe this wont make sense to anyone. curious about peoples thoughts.

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comfy kitty (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
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my diy electrolysis setup (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
submitted 2 weeks ago by applebusch to c/mtf

posting this instead of using it right now lol. making progress but its hard to get myself to sit down and do it.

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all dolled up (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
submitted 2 weeks ago by applebusch to c/trans_joy

playing around with makeup a little :3

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hey you, im glad you're here (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
submitted 3 weeks ago by applebusch to c/transmemes

just feeling happy that you exist today

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naming the clan (lemmy.blahaj.zone)
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