Are you comfortable describing where you source your Estradiol Enanthate and anti-androgens? I am looking at Open Gate Labs since they ship from the US and I live in the US. But I can't find any sources that are selling Bicalutamide. Each seller is out of stock or saying they aren't shipping due to the Trump tariffs. I don't really want to go on Spiro since they say it's weaker and then the side effects of Cyproterone acetate scare the heck out of me (e.g., benign brain tumors).
In my experience, my wife flip flops a bit between accepting and feeling sad about it. Sometimes our conversations are similar to yours: practical, forward thinking, assuming I'll transition, etc. Other times, our conversations are more reflective, sadder, concerned about the future, uncertain about my transition, etc. We've decided to put a pause on conversations about it. As you can see from my post history, I'm still leaning towards HRT, but I'm running into a lot of insurance blockers that make it difficult. I'm now considering the DIY route, but it's kinda complicated looking. Not too bad, but it requires learning a lot of stuff I was hoping my doctors would figure out for me.
I hope your journey goes well! I'll probably be on this community fairly frequently over the coming months.
I just finished the first climb of the mountain. Awesome game. So stressful though lol
Ok I played for 90min so far and Celeste is hard! It's fun though
I appreciate the concern and it's super kind of you to bring that all up. I've dealt with depression my whole life and I've gone to extensive therapy to treat it. On the positive side, I have tons of tools, medications, and support to deal with depression. My wife is aware of my history and I'm going to therapy. I'm taking Lexapro to alleviate my general depression. I'm not super worried about it because my wife and I understand that – if it ever gets to that point – I'll take HRT to alleviate my symptoms and begin fully transitioning.
Kids are really important to me. I've always wanted a decently sized family and my first child has been nothing but joy (and work, but mostly joy). As for the IVF, it's definitely on the table. My wife and I are going to assess a natural pregnancy solution in a few months and decide then if we're interested in trying. I'm pretty sure I can hang on that long. In the meantime, I'm doing everything I can via diet, exercise, and hair to achieve the goals that HRT isn't going to naturally provide. I'm hoping that we can get pregnant, I can then freeze my sperm, and then I can go on HRT. Basically, I'd be waiting 6-9 months before the HRT arrives at my doorstep. That's a long time and my plans might change, but that's the currently plan.
Lol yes, she would. I am considering freezing materials for IVF for sure!
Cool! Installing Arch was surprisingly easy. Just a few minor issues. Plus I have a MacBook Pro with the touch bar (not my choice) and I am struggling to get that working with the recommended packages but beyond that it's not too bad.
Fuck that person. They possibly didn't realize you brought your own milkshake to the yard. Damn right. It's better than theirs.
captainjaneway
joined 5 months ago
I can't join the Matrix server. When I try registering with the server
chat.blahaj.zoneandblahaj-20250508I just get a 500 Internal Server Error response from the server. I tried different username/password combinations in case there was an issue with special characters, but nothing seemed to change. Instead I registered with matrix.org and was able to get accepted. I'm learning how to use Matrix, but I'm getting the hang of it a bit. I'll try and find the HRT room :)