So my girlfriend "Lily" hasn't texted me in over a week. I can tell she is alright and receiving my messages, as it says she has read them, but she won't respond, even if I send something romantic like "I love you" or just say something like "let me know when you can hang out".

Lily is usually busy and will text me "Sorry can't talk right now" and that will be the end of our conversation. My friends, however, said that this is suspicious and means she doesn't WANT to talk because if she couldn't talk right NOW she would at least answer later instead of just reading it. ' I have no idea, it's been a week and I haven't heard from her.

@lesbians Eleanor Roosevelt was an American #lesbian diplomat and activist. She would be 141 years old today. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eleanor/_Roosevelt

@lesbians Harriet Hosmer was an American #lesbian sculptor. She would be 195 years old today. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Harriet/_Hosmer

@lesbians Esther Lape was an American #lesbian journalist and activist. She would be 144 years old today. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Esther/_Lape

So, I'm gonna preface this by saying that I know my own sexuality is for me to define, and me alone. I'm just looking to hear some outside opinions to hear more than just my own internal voice.

For quite some time, I considered myself a lesbian. I only really felt like I could be attracted to women or perhaps some enby folks; men for me felt completely out of the question. I'm demisexual (perhaps demiromantic as well, but I haven't really been in situations where I could test that out), and so I need someone that I can connect with emotionally. For me, that's always been women, as we just get each other on a level that I have never found with men, and with an emotional maturity that's lacking in the men I've met in my life.

Then I met a trans man that I really hit it off with, and after getting to know each other really well, I fell into a situationship. At that point, I considered that I must be bi, because I was having feelings and open to doing things with a man. But now that I've been out of that situationship for quite some time, I can't help but think that despite our initial emotional connection, him and I didn't really connect the way I wanted. It was more trauma bonding than anything, really. Of course, that was clouded by the fact that he was my favorite person at the time, when I didn't realize I had BPD, so any connection felt amazing in the moment. I'm not sure if anything would have ever happened if it weren't for my BPD.

I've been beginning to think that I'm not sure about the bi label anymore, because for the most part, my lack of attraction to men hasn't really changed, at least not on the emotional/romantic part. It feels like he was an exception, which feels very strange to me. I mean, I have no fear in who I'm attracted to, so I don't feel like that's a denial response, I think more than anything I'm still just figuring out who I am? Or maybe my BPD led me into a situation that defies my sexual or romantic orientation? I think the way I'm most comfortable identifying myself is that I'm romantically a lesbian, but sexually bi, though my being demisexual kind of means I don't see myself ending up in a situation in the future where the distinction matters.

Does that make sense? I just wanna hear someone else's thoughts on the matter because I've had a tough time fully resolving my thoughts by myself the past 5 months.

If anything, this is kind of just a vent post.

If I ever break up with her (which I hope i won't), i will take a break from dating for a while, but we're giving each other exactly what we need and want and things are going great!

my ex was talking about how we didn't REALLY know each other, but since i've been friends with this girl already, i feel really happy.

we've already kissed!

@lesbians Mary McCarthy was an American #lesbian actress, singer, dancer and comedian. She would be 102 years old today. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mary/McCarty/(actress)

@lesbians Anita Augspurg was a German #lesbian photographer, feminist, pacifist and doctor of law. She would be 168 years old today.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anita/_Augspurg

But it shouldn’t only be the long hair girls :3

So, I had a girlfriend but we decided to break up because I found out she was using me so I could buy her sodas... so my friend and I ended up bonding and connecting really well so I just went for it. We have a strong bond. :)

@lesbians Margaret Lindsay was an American #lesbian actress. She would be 115 years old today. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Margaret/_Lindsay

cross-posted from: https://piefed.blahaj.zone/post/300102

The "We Are America March" arrives in DC tomorrow!! (Rule)

This group has walked from Philly to DC!! Any DC folks should also show up.

Random question, but what if Cinderella got with a lady instead!! :)

@lesbians Greta Garbo was a Swedish #lesbian actress. She would be 120 years old today. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Greta/_Garbo

Belle, age 16, throws away the heart of Catherine, age 15. She didn't really love Catherine, not really, so she had to string along Catherine like a doll so as not to upset her. I suppose, in a way, it seemed like a different kind of love, the way she didn't want to upset her.

Catherine gave and gave, and Belle sat, taking it all and forcing herself to give when she had barely anything. Belle, age 36, calls Catherine one day, her old friend from high school. She's finally ready to tell her she misses her and loves her, all those sweet words she didn't want to say 20 years prior. And yet Catherine said "I moved on, Belle. Why can't you?"

i need support, im panicking right now. i swear, the only people who ever like me realize they're aromantic or fear of commitment.

edit: not panicking, need someone to talk to. i'm upset about someone who was never mine. she just liked me, she wasn't mine. i wasn't hers.

i need to process things, ugh

how can i be romantic with my girlfriend without kissing her or without getting gifts or anything because she doesn’t want to? just spend time together and say “i love you” maybe? i know there’s other ways to be romantic but idk how

so, we are holding hands but she doesn’t wanna kiss or anything because she wants to wait a while so we take it slow because i started dating her a week ago. however, i am very attached and expressive with my love and she is… less?? how can we make things work and how do i make it so i change and take things slower??

Right now, i’m too bummed out and depressed to want to be romantic or attached, so that’s “good” i guess

im a little sad i couldn’t kiss her, but i’ll be ok!!

we went bowling, we cheered very loud for each other <3 she won the second game, my sister won the first! yayyyy!

my fictional girlfriend luna and i are BAAAAACK!!!!!

I would absolutely love this if so

Ellie: What are you listening to?

Abigail: Oh, just some pop music…

Ellie: I don’t really like pop music, it’s vapid and soulless… I prefer Metallica.

(they look at each other and kiss)

[kind of a not well written shitpost]