They (the glasses) remind me of Spider Jerusalem, in a good way. We need his kind of energy in times like these.
"Gulf of the Jade Skirt" sounds kinda badass.
For me, it was watered-down Mountain Dew with a mild tinge of chlorine.
Update: I was right, it's cozy as fuck.
Also, most of the game is just clicking through dialogue while enjoying synthwave music, which is great for letting your mind escape, but is not for everyone. I'm definitely enjoying it.
After my egg cracked almost 6 months ago now, I went through a lengthy phase where a lot of music would make me burst into tears from sheer relatability. I thought I'd stabilized enough to be over that by now, but just the other day, Peter Gabriel's "Solsbury Hill" got me good. Those themes of stepping out of the hazy drudgery of your comfort zone to embrace a new reality in the face of general confusion and/or disbelief, and having it feel so very right, are absolutely on point for the trans experience.
The track I stumbled upon early on and keep coming back to is Röyksopp & Robyn's "Every Little Thing". It really felt/feels like a call from my inner woman to my repressed AMAB shell, and has become the motivational anthem for my transition.
lol, same
Thank you, this is all great. I'm definitely going to be exploring all aspects of transition to find out what sticks. This post was meant more for things that might otherwise catch me by surprise, directly from the hormones.
I really like that idea about tracking statistics and checking levels. Do you know a good resource for understanding what metrics to track in terms of hormones, and what levels I should be looking for and at what times? Suggestions on which specific measurements are best to track the effects on my body over time are also welcome. Hoping to hit a sweet spot where I'm not leaving out anything meaningful, but also not going overboard.
For anyone who wants this same point made in more detail, Philosophy Tube has a great video on it. https://youtu.be/koud7hgGyQ8?si=6yYv-uc9C9wh0_9E
I'm a bit late to this thread, but thought I'd chime in anyway in case you want to hear from someone else with some similar feelings. I'm also quite new to this - after years of wondering without believing, my egg finally broke about a month ago, and ever since then I've gone back and forth between conflicting moods. Sometimes I'm confident that this is an obvious truth that I should have seen at least ten years ago, and sometimes I end up feeling numb to it all and wondering if it was all some kind of dream or delusion.
For what it's worth, I've definitely found that the doubt is evaporating over time, and especially as I take proactive, gender-affirming actions and really allow myself to feel whatever I end up feeling as a result. It just doesn't make sense for the good things to feel this good or the bad things to feel this bad if it were from any other reason. It sounds like you're taking the same route, so I hope we'll both get to where we need to be sooner rather than later. ❤️
This last detail is a bit more personal, so I don't know how helpful it would be, but since poking a hole in my internal wall, I've also found music to be effective at cutting through my remaining psychological barriers and striking at my emotional core. Basically, if I hear song lyrics that relate in any way to my situation (even if it requires a twist of perspective), I turn into a blubbering mess. There's one song in particular that always seems to set me off, so I've occasionally gone out of my way to listen to it when I'm in a doubtful mood. It's hard to deny your feelings when you're bursting into tears. Maybe you've encountered something similar that you could use in the same way.
Hmm, looks like I've rambled for a bit longer than intended. Sorry if this essay was excessive! 😅
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Yeah. Not mutually exclusive, either.