Anecdotal, but I've been steadily losing weight since just before starting HRT, and no problems here :3

A starvation diet is probably not a good idea, though. Keep eating a good balance of nutrients!

Skinny girls can grow breasts. And it's not as if eating to excess is going to make them grow faster (although higher body fat will make everything bigger).

One of the things I've been hoping for with HRT (apart from boobs and so on) is more emotional depth. I have a not entirely undeserved reputation as an emotional black hole. I was going to complain about not seeing any of that this week, until I realized that I've been crying over random things all weekend that would ordinarily have me annoyed and looking for a drink. It's weird how much better I feel after, kind of like a cheat code.

A trans woman I've been following on Youtube recently posted a rant about the trans community, and she seems to have internalized a lot of right-wing transphobic talking points. That saddens me, because I've only just started unpacking all of my internalized transphobia and misogyny (and I thought I was an ally!) and I realize it's been causing me a lot of self-loathing.

Oh, and dialing in my dose after switching to injections sucks. I mean, I can top up with gel if need be, but every time I see man stuff coming back feels like waking up from a really good dream and realizing it was just a fantasy all along. Androgen blockers are available, but kind of a last resort here. Guess I might want to seriously consider orchiectomy^*^?

I want a hug :(

^*^ Autocorrect suggested "hysterectomy" instead, which -- I mean -- thanks for the affirmation, I guess?

Oh hello, are you me?

I've been watching Elena Darlingg recently, and got a bad case of "wow, she's amazing. I'm never going to be as much of a woman as her. I'm not really trans anyway..." etc etc.

Mostly I just recognize this as an unhelpful thought pattern and go do something else for a while (and cuddle Blåhaj). Objectively, I know that these are thoughts that cis women have; it's just imposter syndrome; I should be comparing progress against my past self and so on, but that really doesn't help much when I'm feeling jealous.

Sometimes I do get euphoria though, and while I can't call it up on demand, I do try to remember those times and that I'm doing this to feel good!

Starting HRT made a big difference: I'm in the pipeline now and just sitting around is still working towards my goal. I hope your therapist will get you sorted soon.

<3

Sorry, maybe it was a bit too obscure! It's a meme about feminizing voice training.

First panel is Frieren; she has a fairly deep voice (for anime at least) but obviously feminine. Should be achievable, and I'd be really happy if I could sound anywhere close to that (although maybe a bit less breathy).

Second panel is Makoto from Sempai is an Otokonoko - the scene where he's(*) standing in front of a blackboard after being outed. His voice is quite soft and high, but sounds like a boy (in-universe he can pass) -- which is kind of where I'm at most of the time.

I'm talking about the Japanese voice acting, btw. I assume the dubs use similar voices.

(*) There's apparently some debate over this, but since Makoto rejects wanting to be a girl and explicitly says "I'm a guy", I'm going to assume femboy rather than trans girl.

Oh, and prosody, vocab, going slower, and being more empathetic. Talking like a girl is hard.

It's pretty warm today, so I threw on a T-shirt and was about to head outside when I caught sight of myself in the mirror. Oh my god, the pokeys! Hmm, well a light sweater couldn't hurt. Even so, there's a definite... shape.

You guys, I think I might have boobs now <3

Oh shoot, episode 2 is out this evening, yay!

I will gladly admit to wanting to cosplay Rem.

Now: I have my own Estrogen and cake will make me fat, but let's hang out.

Past: Nah man, I'm cool being a guy. But we can still hang out. By the way, where do you keep the cake? Just so I don't accidentally eat any of it, you understand.

Howdy ma'am!

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~~Definitely not trans~~

~~OK, possibly a bit trans~~

You caught me :3

Congratulations, and best of luck for the future!

I know! This could be a really good bonding experience.