Nice outfit! I like the scarf. And thanks for sharing <3

Oh hello, are you me?

I've been watching Elena Darlingg recently, and got a bad case of "wow, she's amazing. I'm never going to be as much of a woman as her. I'm not really trans anyway..." etc etc.

Mostly I just recognize this as an unhelpful thought pattern and go do something else for a while (and cuddle Blåhaj). Objectively, I know that these are thoughts that cis women have; it's just imposter syndrome; I should be comparing progress against my past self and so on, but that really doesn't help much when I'm feeling jealous.

Sometimes I do get euphoria though, and while I can't call it up on demand, I do try to remember those times and that I'm doing this to feel good!

Starting HRT made a big difference: I'm in the pipeline now and just sitting around is still working towards my goal. I hope your therapist will get you sorted soon.

<3

Sorry, maybe it was a bit too obscure! It's a meme about feminizing voice training.

First panel is Frieren; she has a fairly deep voice (for anime at least) but obviously feminine. Should be achievable, and I'd be really happy if I could sound anywhere close to that (although maybe a bit less breathy).

Second panel is Makoto from Sempai is an Otokonoko - the scene where he's(*) standing in front of a blackboard after being outed. His voice is quite soft and high, but sounds like a boy (in-universe he can pass) -- which is kind of where I'm at most of the time.

I'm talking about the Japanese voice acting, btw. I assume the dubs use similar voices.

(*) There's apparently some debate over this, but since Makoto rejects wanting to be a girl and explicitly says "I'm a guy", I'm going to assume femboy rather than trans girl.

Oh, and prosody, vocab, going slower, and being more empathetic. Talking like a girl is hard.

Probably the best answer is: talk to a therapist.

Having said that, I didn't. But you should know that it's really easy to convince yourself that everything is fine when it isn't, and difficult to figure out what's actually wrong. (And then in my case, realize I actually did know all along, and was just suppressing it).

A couple of resources that may help you figure out your gender are:

• The Gender Dysphoria Bible
• How To Figure Out If You're Trans
• Also egg_irl, either here or on Reddit

Oh shoot, episode 2 is out this evening, yay!

I will gladly admit to wanting to cosplay Rem.

Now: I have my own Estrogen and cake will make me fat, but let's hang out.

Past: Nah man, I'm cool being a guy. But we can still hang out. By the way, where do you keep the cake? Just so I don't accidentally eat any of it, you understand.

Howdy ma'am!

Had a nice long chat with the wife. Basically explaining the story so far, all those obvious-in-hindsight things. Talked about how I want to start HRT, and what that will entail. She's cool with it becoming a same-sex marriage, and went as far as to say "I know you're not the type to fool around, but if you decide you like men instead, that's OK with me".

Since coming out things have been noticeably friendlier (not in a euphemistic way, just actually talking about stuff in a warmer tone). Which is surprising, but I'll take it!

Things might all turn out OK after all. ☺️

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~~Definitely not trans~~

~~OK, possibly a bit trans~~

You caught me :3

Congratulations, and best of luck for the future!

I know! This could be a really good bonding experience.