I think I finally overcame my own denial and truly admitted to myself that, yes, I'm trans. I think the biggest things that kept my denial was that my mental health was pretty good, so there was no point to transition and that I really only started to consider the possibility that I was trans after reading the Gender Dysphoria Bible making me think that my trans thoughts were caused by my reading of the GDB. But the fact that I think the HRT is appealing, that I realized that I absolutely have dysphoria around things like body hair and how my crotch has a visible bump, and how I have slight envy of other trans girls who go through transition, is what eliminated the last of that denial

Spiraling mentally 🫠

I have no job starting next week and nothing lined up, and can't get my brain to function for thirty fucking seconds to effectively job hunt. I feel stupid for having given up my current/previous job, but still relatively happy to not be working for the US government.

Brain don't fuckin' work and frankly it feels dangerous to even try fixing that in a red state or with this government in place and i hate it. Executive function is nonexistent and i think my depression is significantly worse than i thought it was. If i have to move back in with parents it will be significantly worse.

So.

I went out with some friends, some of whom I keep in touch with frequently, some I haven't met since before transitioning. Since it was a natural topic of conversation, I asked everyone (individually) about The Button. Immediate transformation, no takebacks.

Everyone said they would press it

Help.

Am I the seed?