I play the weirdest shit

Paradox

Ok normie

Try being an actual full blooded native person.

I'm 100% Ojibway, my parents on both sides were born raised and lived in the wilderness. I'm the first generation born in a modern hospital. My first language is ojibway, I spoke it exclusively for the first 15 years of my life. We learned English in school but we all spoke ojibway at home. I learned to hunt, trap, fish and live on the land from my parents and I love spending time outdoors. It's all natural to me.

Now I live close to the city in a non native world. My wife is white and we spend most of our time to ourselves.

My family doesn't think I'm native enough. White people don't believe I'm native because I live like a city person. Most people don't believe I'm native because I don't have red weathered skin, a crooked nose and long braided hair. Many people have confused me as Chinese, Korean, or an overweight Thai, Cambodian or Lao. Or even Peruvian, Ecuador or Mexican.

I meet city Indians who have ancestry but have never lived on the land or know their communities or even speak the language yet they wear native stuff, necklaces and everything and get more recognition than me for being native.

I intimidate other natives when I speak my language because it reminds them that they can't speak other than to know a few words or phrases. So now I seldom speak and as I grow older, the people I could speak to are now either dead, dying or too old.

I get funding as a native person but I get very little. I don't live in reserve so I'm the last to get funding. I don't get off reserve funding because I have full status with my community where I could live if I chose to. I get tax off on some things but not everything because I don't live on reserve and doing my taxes every year is a nightmare, so in the end, I pay just about the same amount of taxes as everyone else and save just a little.

I've watched dozens of half breed, quarter breed, 1/8 breed, 1/16 breed natives with scholarships and paid education while I tried to fight for mine and never got it. I got high school but never got more than that.

I even know a couple of blue eyed, blonde Indians who got adopted into a native family and have full status and more help than I ever did.

People keep telling me I'm lucky to be native but I've experienced far too much racism and stupidity to be happy about who I am.

I'm neither treated as full native and I'm also not treated as non native either. It's like I exist in some kind of native twilight zone.

This reads like a young man who hasn't learned how to do things for his own enjoyment yet.

Definitely needs to get off 4chan. Weird people who don't have this crab in a bucket 'you're not weird enough if you have a stable job and aren't ugly' mentality aren't that hard to find outside of very specific corners of the internet.

Stop the categorys and just be a Person others can be save around and happy

Fake: X4 is not a videogame, it's rehab for crazy german accountants

Gay: weird, therefore queer, therefore gay

Just become a line cook you’ll be the most normal one there.

Is this anyone else’s experience? I don’t fit neatly in any box, I have friends in all of them. I have friends in traditional marriages with the woman as the homemaker, I have all sorts of queer friends. I have friends that think videogames are edgy, others playing D&D every second day, others in sword battle reenactment, others in crochet. Never struggled relating to them or them to me. I moved around a lot, still found “my people” in no time. We are all multifaceted people with a variety of interests and thoughts.

This fucking normie playing pardox games? Don't talk to me unless you are at least compiling CDDA from source code on a Linux phone. Fucking casuals.

What the FUCK do you do?

Have you tried getting a boyfriend? I dunno, worked for me.

I mean i kinda get what anon means but maybe the first step could be getting off of 4chan? That shit melts your brain and you already see it from this normie/wierdo split that isnt really a real thing. Irl you WILL find the people who think like you because were all on a spectrum.

Edit: just to clarify i mean spectrum in the way of personality, not the autism spectrum. Tho id argue that some neurotypical people relate more to autistic people than other neurotypicals but thats a story for another day.

I am not like people at my work but I like people at my work.

None of that being different matters if you can just listen and talk to others without needing them to be like you.

I will say on the video games it may be a generational thing, my kids love both indie games and Minecraft/Genshin. Penultimate kid liked Disco Elysium so much. Youngest likes horror, I got them Amnesia and they loved it, said it was too scary to do much at one time.

Anyway, just let other people do what other people do. You can like them, you don't need to change yourself or then

Get off of 4chan, to start. Keep trying to diversify your friends, find people more open minded than the five you currently have.

Sounds like anon is way over-thinking all of this and just needs to learn to accept themself.

Maybe anon is just an asshole.

Maybe try sayin "hi" instead of "epic boobs, brah"

Stop viewing the world from this perspective? People ar just different that doesn't mean their aren't certain categorizations that classify as "normal" but self pity or just not finding a therapist to talk to. I know it is cliché to say, "help yourself bro." It isn't fair people hurt every day that need help and it isn't that easy.

But going online to get self justification on being "weird" and not fitting in with "normies" and feeling judged is why you feel out of place because you filter yourself into this, "I am not normal... And normies do not like me and women loath me and I don't understand why."

That and 4-chan is a cesspool "justify me non normies who also feel they are not normal and are justified in their beliefs of being racist and sexist. Help me justify the feeling of feeling that way please."

May you could try to find people who like the things you like?

thinking your weird and special kinda makes it come true

I have yet to meet anyone that plays FIFA and would pass as "normal".

Transition

Just get a sex doll

Stop being weird i guess 🤷🏼

Anon has odd ideas what a "normie" is.

Did this guy seriously try and claim that he's weird because he plays games produced by one of the largest publishers in the world? Yep definitely can't get out of his own way.