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I'm just really tired.
(lemmy.blahaj.zone)
I've been on HRT for about 4.5 years now, and I still don't really feel any better, I'm still very depressed and dystphoric. I know I dont put a ton of effort in, but when I for help cultivating an aesthetic, people tell me to go on tiktok, or just Google it, I suffer a lot as a result cause due to my ADHD I just can't pay attention or I dont do anything and I just keep suffering, I've honestly considered just ending it since my dysphoria has been strong and consistent my entire life. I'm just tired, I want help but I just feel alone in this journey since I can't just google it, or look it up on tiktok. I feel like I'm a hopeless person and I'm honestly annoying to the trans community and huge part of transphobia
I'm not gonna repeat exactly what I said last time about your appearance, because that's not what this post is really about. You're being hopeless and annoying right now by complaining that you might as well detransition, despite it being unlikely that you'll ever do so without external pressure.
I think deep down you know how miserable it'd make you, and you only wanna detransition because you feel like hurting yourself. It's not that your struggle isn't valid, as this struggle is worth talking about in more constructive ways; it's just that you're not helping yourself in any way by complaining about it on social media.
Nothing we say will fundamentally change that being the right gender isn't a cure all for all mental problems. Before I transitioned I grappled with the fear that I just wanted to transition as an escape from my mental health issues. Eventually I realized that while transition was necessary to help myself, it was not everything I needed. It makes them solvable and worth solving, but it isn't the ultimate solution.