"But I don't want to fix the problem, I want to punish people." A conservative, probably.

I was afraid. Still am. Basically I learned at a young age expressing my preferred gender would cause me harm, and that it would be terrible if anyone ever found out about it. I was aware that there was something I desperately wanted to feel but was terrified to face or understand it. So I constructed ways to access that feeling in a cheap and pornographic manner that barely satisfied the need. Fortunately I realized I can feel it any time I want by just telling myself, "I'm a girl." or when people use feminine pronouns. It took me forty years to figure it out.

Yeah... I had that thought so many times. Didn't realize what it meant till recently.

I've only just recently cracked, but it came with a sudden more clear understanding of my attractions. I have always been attracted to women almost exclusively. I would not have thought I could feel more attracted to women, but suddenly I am. I don't really know how to describe it.

I can't be trans cause there's no way to change my Y into an X.

Thank you. It's not about the makeup so much as that's one thing that is complex and intimidating among many things that are complex and intimidating about being a woman. It's the first thing I thought of, and I don't even know where to begin. I don't even have to wear makeup, many women don't. I feel like I'm at the bottom of a hill that looks steep and intimidating, I don't know if I can get to the top but at the same time this is just the first hill of the rocky mountains, and I have to get to the other side.

The paradox is that most closeted trans people are absolutely terrible at trusting their inner voice. When you spend your whole life with a nagging disconnect between how the world sees you and how you see yourself, it becomes easier to rely on other people to tell you “who you really are.” Even if you know deep down that all the people in your life are missing some fundamental fact about your identity, it’s nearly impossible to avoid listening to others over oneself.

This right here. my instincts are all off because every external voice told me i was wrong my whole life. Like I was always bad at tests because any time there was an obvious answer I had to question the wording or the context because me feeling right about something is always wrong.

My god I was a lesbian the whole time!

I've talked to her. It was difficult to be coy about it the way it happened, and so far she's been a big help. But we both know this is way above her pay grade.Unfortunately money's tight, and getting a therapist isn't in the cards short term.

Yeah, I've been trying to let everything settle in my mind before making any big decisions. It would be so easy to just jump in go nuts and make everything worse.

As someone who's into that cuck shit: for the love of god, could they keep the blatant racism out of it for five fucking minutes? I mean he's supposed to be this superior male better in every way, so why does he have all the personality of a car alarm? Also if she's so great that the MC has to accept her cheating, why does it seem like she doesn't give two shits about the other guy/s aside from dick size? And fuck off with you're "Blacked" bullshit. Big dicks come in all colors, have her gangbang the lot of them, but don't tell me she's exclusive to one now cause this one amorphous blob of a guy who's only features are 40% grey skintone, and a massive schlong dicked her down once. Honestly, it's like these things are written by people that have no idea what women want for the same people who are also massively racist.

I feel like you're being deliberately obtuse. You're right in that by itself trying to define the nazi party of the past in terms of present day left/right ideology is reductivist, and unproductive in discourse. But you're ignoring two important facts in the present day right/left dynamic. First that literal modern day nazis have shown a distinct preference for right wing ideaology. Second is that fascism as an ideology is a chameleon that latches onto present day conflict to unite people through oppression of a weak other, which is the basis for present day right wing policy. As such the comparison becomes apt because the fascists of the past are a model for the fascists of the present.