On god the day that trans youth don't have to go through what I went through in the US will be the day that I am happy
As a mod i see more things than most people do
Yup. I don't feel comfortable using my one account where I am openly trans on any trans or queer non related communities because unfortunately transphobia is too rampant.
The brainrot is storong in this one
Too relatable...
Thanks for the update post! I'm proud of you for getting this far.
Shaving my face feels great. I haven't had any major hairs come in yet, but shaving off all that peach fuzz is an affirming ritual. I love looking at myself in the mirror with the shaving cream on my face.
Thank you for this. There are so many lovely cis allies out there. Keep it up!
My thoughts on this are complicated.
On one hand, if I were never trans I would never have understood systemic oppression as well as I do. I can understand some of the struggles that women face physically and socially even though I am not one. I'll be able to tell future generations about existing as a trans person in this important part of queer history. I also have the experience of living as both genders physically and socially, which is an experience the vast majority of the population will never get.
On the other hand, I wouldn't have wasted as much of my life if I had been cis. I probably would have still struggled with depression and anxiety, but wouldn't have lost all of the opportunities that I did and isolated myself because of being trans. There's also be less future health problems to deal with if I were cis. It's still unknown what a lot of the long term affects of testosterone are for trans men's bodies, but it's possible it can increase the chances of getting reproductive cancers in addition to the increased risk of cardiovascular events and heart disease. You don't come across many old trans men compared to trans women. There's also all the surgeries and general stress of being trans in this day and age that can't be good for the body. I also probably would have been screened for ADHD much, much earlier which would have made my life a lot easier than it turned out to be.
I do wish I could be cis, but it is what it is. I'll never have a body exactly like a cis man's and I didn't get the adolescence I should have gotten, and I've come to terms with the fact. Gotta come to terms with what you've got and see the benefits.
I don't even remember, funnily enough. It was a slow process that happened over time.
I was at the hospital getting labs done for testosterone. When I walked in, there was a receptionist who recorded my legal name and legal sex. I told him my legal name (a very obviously feminine name. I hate it) and the guy STILL goes ahead and circles male on the form.
I don't correct him and bring the form to the place where they print out a wristband so the lab technician can identify you. Evidently they must have been confused by looking at my records and the paper, so when I got the wristband it said:
Sex: Adult
At this point in my life I am content with the good friends that I've made in college. I find that I have the closest friendships with queer men because there's less of an atmosphere of us both constantly trying to signal and prove our masculinity and more of a "whatever make you happy, I don't care" attitude. Less repression and insecurity, essentially.