I disassociate

Enjoying actually doing nothing, usually.

To me it's like saying, what are you actually doing when you get a massage?

Enjoying it

I'm actually having a shower, just being too tired/unmotivated to do it at "normal" speed.

For better or for worse I tend to reflect and ruminate over the things I did that day and worry/think about how I can be better.

• as this usually adds like 10mins to my showers I've started to play one of my favorite tracks to help me time limit myself

That and sometimes I get great ideas that tends to loop on itself and so out of fear of losing my funk I also delay getting out😅

Trying to find the spoons to get back out and dry myself.

Wishing that the west had the bathtub culture of Japan so I could be sitting down

Sit on the floor, let hot rain warm me, breathe, let every muscle relax, try to find the center of me, fail, still enjoy warmth.

Shaving my scalp to near perfection so it can power a solar farm.

Advanced Calculus.

Depends, it's just nice to stand under warm water so if I've got the time I'm not gonna rush.

Sometimes I'm doing an "everything" shower where I use conditioner on my hair and facial cleanser, etc. whereas a usual quick one is just shampoo and shower gel

Generally, time blindness and waking up. Feels like 10 minutes, really was closer to 30-40. I never feel fully awake until I've showered.

It's a mix of relaxing, warming up, thinking about life. I rarely do it nowadays though.

Avoiding getting out. Even Batman has trouble with it http://www.smbc-comics.com/comic/2013-11-20

Either just stand there and let my toughts wander, or shave my balls, or have sex with my wife if she tagged along, or furious masturbation followed by self loathing.

Try to calm down

Relax and warm up.

Or shaving!

Depends.

Most of the time, it's going the extra mile, like scrubbing the heels extra, maybe paying more attention than usual to body parts that aren't high maintenance. That kind of thing.

Sometimes, it's pampering myself. Breaking out all the goodies that don't get you cleaner, they just feel or smell good. Like those fancy sugar scrubs or whatever.

Others, it's just sitting in the heat because my muscles are hurting from staying tight because the rest of me is hurting. Ngl, I kinda count that as pampering too, but it isn't exactly the same thing all the way.

Every now and then, I'm lost in thought. Okay, I'm pretty much always lost in thought while doing any of that, but sometimes I get lost early enough in the process that what was meant to be a quick shower ends up long because the motor got running, but it didn't get put in gear. If I'm already deep in my head when I sit down (disability usually requires a shower bench), I may entirely neglect to grab anything to actually get started bathing until something interrupts the thought chain.

I just got out of the shower, btw. And I can't remember a damn thing about the process other than grabbing various products and using them. If I couldn't tell by smell and feel, I could have been washing my beard with my wife's vanilla smelling stuff, or a bottle of mouthwash for all I actually remember of what I was doing. I know I'm clean because my body feels clean, and I can smell that I grabbed the right products, but there's no real recollection of specifics.

I know that I was in there twenty minutes or so based on what time I went to get started vs when I opened my lemmy app. But it could have been hours, or a few minutes for all I can remember of being in there.

Mind you, I got some stuff done in my head. A short story I've been pondering on how to start, plans for when I go out tomorrow, a conclusion about the hierarchy of needs of a neighborhood issue, some relived fond memories, some budgeting, and a partial grocery list. Plus a whole bunch of random thoughts and imagery that just flashed through.

That's what I'm doing in there :)

Being thorough.

I face the faucet, lean forward and put my head against the wall so the hot water runs over my neck and shoulders, then stay like that for like 20 minutes or longer.

I generally think of what to do, how to do, when to do

I was just so cold yesterday I didn't feel like getting out, so I kept rinsing. It's been a cold spring here!