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so everyone thinks I'm a femboy now? (self.mtf)
submitted 4 months ago by MicrondeMMMMMMM to c/mtf
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For context I'm not out to anyone and I still boymode (6months HRT)

I was at a party in a bar with friends 1 month ago, we took pictures together and posted them in a discord server, immediately a dude "V" asked if I was a real femboy. So now I have people asking me about it and I didn't reply.

Yesterday I had an eyelid surgery and I sent a picture in the group with my eye patch just for fun and V immediately went "yeah you're 100% a femboy I was certain of it" (in another language) and people AGREED???!!

I don't know what to do, on one hand I want to be a woman not a boy or a man, but on the other, since I probably won't pass until I get FFS I might as well say I am a femboy in the meantime, this way I can pretend to be a man and still wear what I want?

I'm not sure I would get treated better than if I was out as a trans woman. Feminine men get a lot of shit. But femboys seem to be trendy enough to be seen as weirdly cool. Idk...

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[-] KillingAndKindess 2 points 4 months ago

Thats totally valid. Makeup scared me even though I used some during my "maybe I'm just a falmboyant man" phase. If you ever do feel comfortable giving 1-2 things a try in the makeup Dept. then I would recommend buying a 12-16$ mascara from your local drugstore. Mascara on the eyelashes goes such a long way into femme for how little it is.

What length of hair are you working with?

[-] Daxter101 1 points 4 months ago

Pretty long. Curliness makes it not show its full length, and it still hangs below the shoulders. Brushed straight, it just about reaches the end of the ribcage

[-] KillingAndKindess 1 points 4 months ago

And what kind of styles/scenes are you trying to fit?

[-] Daxter101 1 points 4 months ago* (last edited 4 months ago)

Relevant XKCDExperts overestimating the familiarity of the average person with what they know

I have absolutely 0 idea, I don't know how to name nearly any style whatsoever.

I need at least a bit of plausible deniability, at least for going outside, because my town is pretty backwards.

Even my favourite way of putting it up in the house alone, which is in a 10-15-degrees-above-horizontal ponytail, but sideways instead of backwards, which makes me feel really cute, is not really a style I can wear outside.

I guess the feeling I'd like to get, is this, being cute and bubbly.

Honestly, now that I think about it, my expectation to wear these outside before you even tell me, is dumb. Just gimme the cutest, girliest, bubbliest style(s?) you got, for exploration and euphoria.

[-] KillingAndKindess 2 points 4 months ago* (last edited 4 months ago)

🥺 i hope you are able to find a way out.

You may be safe exploring some androgynous/unisex emo/punk expressions. The whole "Man with long hair" look is common enough that signaling a few "Hippie" or Hipster or maybe emo/punk themes (I.E. dark hair, dark clothes,or even monochromatic clothes, etc) should more than "cover" you.

For something just around the house in private, I'd actually recommend going to a thrift shop and finding inexpensive clothing that fits you. Some thrifts won't let you try things on, so when the "hold it up" method doesn't help, coming with your correct measurements will make things go smoothly. Also, in the event your safety is coming into question, ditching your clothes when they're thrifts at least reduces the financial trauma.

Good luck, stay safe!

[-] Daxter101 1 points 4 months ago* (last edited 4 months ago)

Thanks, the thrift idea is probably pretty good. And, as long as something is inside my house, it's plenty safe, so I don't worry about that.

My actual style, slowly is shifting towards a style between punk and hippie that does exist here (we have a couple of... I think in English they're called squats? Occupations? People take over public buildings for protest, and live in them long term as small semi-communes), with long hair, loose-fitting short sleeved dress shirts, short jeans and piercings.

To be perfectly honest with you, my masc expression is enjoyable as fuck.

But, maybe, for that reason, and because of my sense of what non-binary is... This "slight femininity" is not feminine to me. It's a well balanced, healthy masculinity.

And I love this part of myself.

Probably slightly oversharing rantAnd at the same time, I wanna dye the tips of my hair pink. I wanna skirt go spinny. I want the interesting, chaotic, enormous variety that girl clothes have. And dresses. I want a damned nipple piercing, without being scared of how much it shows through clothes. I wanna be able to hug people without feeling self-conscious, either like I'm inappropriate and invading, or like I'm "socially not understanding the rules" and "not acting like a man".

So yeah. I'm more struggling with gender roles, than aesthetics themselves. But god knows I'd enjoy playing around with the simple joys of it all, in my home at least.

Thanks for the recommendations and the site, by the way!

this post was submitted on 29 Jul 2024
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