So my wife and I have been trying to work through the practicality of me coming out. She's been having trouble perceiving me as female, which, like, I still have a beard, so I get it. She's bi, but also believes that homosexuality is a sin, so she's been trying to work though what we would look like. I've been trying to break apart the rigid gender roles a bit, and told her last night that I don't mind our kids calling me "dad" even if I go full fem, I have no problem with she/her/dad. Like, I'm the sperm donor, not the one who carried them for nine months. She thought that was great and asked about husband, because she really would rather have a husband than a wife. I told her that I'd really prefer wife, as husband is rather ick for me, so we are still working on that point.
Long preamble, sorry, but this morning as we were telling each other about our dreams last night and our visions for the future, she said "I envision myself in the future with my husband, and she's beautiful"
I think that's the first time I've been gendered correctly by my wife, and it feels so good. I think we are going to make it. I'm going to have my kayak and heat it too. I'll be able to transition without losing those closest to me. My vision of the future has never looked so bright, growing into old ladies together and showing people with our lives that "Queer Christians" is not an oxymoron.
For me, I personally reacted differently to different labels and pronouns as I transitioned. When I first started I didn't think my deadname or old pronouns bothered me at all, nor did I think they would in the future. It only took a few months for that to change.
In my opinion, early transition is not a time to make these kinds of promises, your intuitions might not be the same a year from now if you medically transition and live as a woman. You also aren't thinking about what it might be like for your children to call someone who looks and lives as a woman their "dad".
If possible, I think it would be wise to seek couple's counseling (ideally someone with a PhD who has experience working with couples where one of them is transitioning), not because anything you're doing is wrong but because it will give you a context for working through the active issues in your relationship. (Sometimes people see couple's counseling as something you do when you're failing, but in my experience if you are proactive and seek couple's counseling before the relationship has reached a critical point where it's too late and the relationship is ending, the counseling is more like an investment in the relationship that breathes life into it and can help sustain it.)
I wish you luck in your transition, I wish you lots of gender euphoria. ❤️