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I don't know who I'm supposed to date (programming.dev)
submitted 2 weeks ago by lazyneet@programming.dev to c/mtf
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This thought has been bugging me for the past few months. Out of my ~15 partners, only 4 would I describe as "conventionally attractive," and all of those were decidedly fem (1 cis f, 2 tf, 1 sissy), and they were all bottoms. I (32tf) can't and don't want to top.

I consider myself pan and I say I like men, but in practice I only like soft and androgynous types. Fem tops are unicorns, and I seem to only be able to maintain relationships for ~6 months at most. My last relationship with a man was such a disaster that I'm tempted to swing the other way, except I don't want to be an ace side or whatever terms people use to justify what amount to platonic relationships. I'm also too busy to really care about anyone right now. How do other transfems navigate this kind of sexual/romantic difficulty?

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[-] irotsoma@piefed.blahaj.zone 2 points 1 week ago

Yeah the switchy operas are the best, if rare. I fortunately have recently had bottom surgery, so yeah, I'm glad I don't need to deal with that anymore. Still recovering so not entirely sure how things are going to go, there. But I also have a lot of trauma, from the typical what it took to get hard and people not understanding it wasn't directly tied to interest in sex, as well as some things testosterone and male gender role expectations caused me to do (not sure some if it wasn't actually rape, but just not classified as rape in our culture), as well as some things bad dommes did to me (almost feeling like revenge for being essentially raped their whole lives, but not called rape). I'm hoping this change will allow me to start over in addition to helping with disphoria as well as allowing me access to some femmes who don't like penises at all for sex and leading to more of that operatic sex that I feel is at least slightly more common when no penises are involved even if I was already at that point in how I had orgasms, but many people were unwilling to treat me that way just because of that hunk of flesh. Lol

[-] lazyneet@programming.dev 2 points 1 week ago

hugs Congratulations on surgery and I wish you a speedy recovery. I wish more people saw penises as accessories rather than tools. I love dicks and I don't require them to perform for me, but that terrible expectation contaminates so many otherwise-enlightened relationships. Pre-transition I dated a girl who asked me to fuck her vaginally on the first date because of apparent expectations, but we found out later that neither of us actually wanted to do that. It would be liberating to be with someone who can keep outside expectations on the other side of the door. You have a lot of wisdom that I'm sure you paid heavily for. You're good people. <3

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