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submitted 2 weeks ago by zip to c/chronicpain@lemmy.world

I am so sorry, but I need to vent, and the only person I manage to talk to has disappeared with no notice (probably just overwhelmed with life stuff but I hope they're okay. I'm worried.) I may end up deleting this, idk. Any comments and niceness would be appreciated because I'm alone and scared and in too much pain and it's too much!!!

I am in overwhelming pain. My chronic intractable pain has been so much worse lately. Probably at least partially due to stress because everything is fucked. I can't afford my next pain medicine refill, and I'm nearly out, and the friend that disappeared usually helps me cover it. I'm disabled and can't work and have literally no money. So I'm just fucked. Even WITH the meds, I've been struggling to handle the pain and it's scary. I genuinely don't know how I'm going to survive without any kind of pain control. Not to mention the withdrawal. I am scared. I am scared I am going to get overstimulated and overwhelmed from the pain that I go all stereotypical autistic meltdown and shutdown and bash my fists into my head and hurt myself, and I feel ashamed and weak that I can't just deal with it like a normal person. I don't know what to do. I'm so stressed and in pain and anxious I'm dealing with dissociation, depersonalization, derealization way more often than usual. I don't know what to do. I don't know how I'm going to survive. I don't know. I'm fucking scared, I can't take this pain. I'm sorry for whining and being weak especially when so many have it so much worse than me. I don't even know if this makes sense. I can't think 'cause I'm in too much fucking pain!!!! I am scared and I am so fucked AAAAAAAAAAAA.

[-] zip 11 points 1 month ago

Awww. :) Hello, beautiful baby!! You're adorable! <3

Thank you for sharing this kitty and their cuteness with us!

[-] zip 7 points 2 months ago

I thought that was weird, too. I wonder why?

[-] zip 10 points 2 months ago

It's all we know and most of us don't have any other choice. It's wild the stuff humans can normalize when you grow up with it and are surrounded by it.

[-] zip 11 points 10 months ago

Please tell Bill I love him!! Thank you for sharing his cuteness with us.

[-] zip 15 points 1 year ago

Ha! It appears I was the 666th upvote. Perfect! a screenshot of the post showing 666 upvotes

Also, I just noticed that my battery level when I took that was 69%. Nice!

[-] zip 10 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

an animated gif from the movie Wayne's World where one guy says to another guy, "Garth, that was a haiku."

Also,

an animated gif from the movie Wayne's World where one guy says to another guy, "I love you, man!"

You're one of my favorite accounts I've ever seen on here. Imagine how excited my little Wayne's World-obsessed pea-brain was when I saw your haiku, that line popped in my head, I went to reply with my dumb, barely-relevant movie reference, and then I saw your name! (Too excited.)

[-] zip 19 points 1 year ago

How exactly do you think bisexual or pansexual people function? Do you think they just don't have friends? If not, why is it different for heterosexual people? I genuinely don't understand. I'm not trying to do a 'gotcha' or a win a silly internet argument or anything like that. I just genuinely have never understood it and I want to so I keep trying. My best guess so far is it's just a mix of insecurities and weird gender norms and heteronormativity.

[-] zip 16 points 1 year ago

Not quite...the term has actually come back around again.

[-] zip 8 points 1 year ago

What the fuck?

[-] zip 9 points 2 years ago

Those watermarks are so obnoxious. I wish people would turn that setting off if they're going to save and share them; or at least crop it out. I guess it's a pet peeve of mine, lol. It irritates me more than it should.

[-] zip 7 points 2 years ago

That's a good guess! They say it's a lot like a French kiss, but 'down under'
(aka mouth on genitals, in case the joke doesn't come through lol)

[-] zip 10 points 2 years ago

Amen, ClamDrinker! Thanks for speaking the truth.

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