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It just happened, alright? I drew it and then it happened and. I’m sorry to do this to you. Goodbye!

I don’t know what to say about this. I’m sorry.

I’m feeling completely disoriented and stunned and just….having a time processing everything. The digital world is changing too quickly. It feels like the ground has turned into lava. Maybe I’m not the only one feeling this way.

I used alcohol markers by ohuhu, a permanent marker, acrylic paint, a napkin and my tears.

I was in a fugue state drawing this. If it is in any way upsetting, I will delete it.

I just want to write stories again and haven't been able to at all since 2025 due to...2025 and all that has entailed. I no longer feel safe or secure using any of my current devices. I feel surveyed and watched 24/7. I'm absolutely not okay with things as they are currently. (.-.) For more context, I have pre-existing mental disorders and this year has just done me in.

I'm striving toward switching out at least one device with something that I can install linux on. I was thinking either a lenovo or a dell, and will start probably with linux mint, they say it's a good beginner distro.

Not being able to write is killing me. I love writing so much even though it's not anything special. It just felt good.

I've never used linux but want to learn and I will learn, because you have to if you want to use it. You can't just hop in a car and hope it will work without knowing how to drive it. I will learn the commands. I'll fail at it a couple times but learn. It'll be great. Bring it.

I appreciate you taking time to reply.

Edit: You guys are amazing. My hope for the future is restored. Thank you!