I know what it is you saw; for it is also in my mind.

I have hardly any knowledge about Colorado, but just looking at this headline and the other big one from the last 24h, I think the judicial and legislative systems there are doing a great job. 😊

My head autocorrected that to John Lennon and I was so confused for a moment.

My rig inside my sturdy ncase M1 has been serving me well for 5 years. It features a full size GPU (gotta precisely check the size) and water cooling. Also two 2,5 inch drives SSD/ HDD and an M2 stick. 16 GB RAM Intel i5 on an Asus MB. Also it has 2 big and one small fan. Never had any overheating issues.

It fits into a large backpack. Also goes well in a suitcase. Going by car, PC, monitor plus peripherals fit into a collapsible crate.

Tbh it has not traveled as much, since even though it is portable, it’s annoying to unplug everything. It sits on my desk, which is nice for removing the cables. Also for height-adjustable desks.

Ich wollte anmerken, dass wir hier den wahrscheinlich trotz unserer Diskussion den selben Fight fighten. Ich bin einfach nur sauer und verletzt von dem was Buschmann da abzieht. Aber meine Wut soll nicht gegen dich gerichtet sein. (Nur dass du das weißt, denn die Diskussion ist schon etwas intensiver). 😊

Hier noch meine Gedanken dazu:

Sicher ist das etwas zugespitzt, aber es ist meine persönliche Meinung zu der Sache.

Wer immer Bedenken anführt, dass vulnerable Gruppen Gesetzesänderung zu ihrem Schutz nur bößwillig ausnutzen werden, verkehrt damit den Diskurs in einen mehr als unterschwelligen Vorwurf.

Klar, unter der CxU gäbe es vermutlich gar kein SBG.

Dennoch, am Maßstab einer progressiven Politik, finde ich die Art wie per Bedankenträgerei eine nicht haltbare Diskriminierung von trans Person weiter aufrecht erhalten wird mindestens queer-unfreundlich und damit aus meiner Sicht feindlich.

Denn das Sauna Thema hätte man in der Öffentlichkeit als Populismus abblocken müssen. Wenn man es stattdessen genüsslich in einem Interview (bzw. sogar mehreren) ausrollt, weiß man welche Signalwirkung das hat. Und auch die gemutmaßte Unfähigkeit der Strafverfolgsbehörden kann ja wohl kaum eine Begründung dafür sein, verfassungsmäßige Freiheitsrechte vorsichtshalber gleich zu beschränken. Da wird ohne Not (aber vielleicht ohne Rückgrat) auf unseren Grundrechten herumgetrampelt wo sich ein Justizminister doch vor die Menschenrechte stellen müsste.

Klar, lieber eine Verbesserung als keine, aber irgendwie hat eine Verbesserung die das übliche Stigma, bei welchem trans sein perfide mit Kriminalität in Verbindung steht quasi gedanklich im Gesetz verankern will, einen sehr bitteren Beigeschmack.

Und eine europaweite Bewegung zu einer nur-ja-heißt-ja Bewegung, die in einigen Ländern dann zumindest eine nein-heißt-nein Gesetzgebung erzwingen würde zu blockieren, schlägt per Bedenkentragen wieder in die gleiche Kerbe.

Hey hey! Sorry for getting back to you only after so long. And also sorry for the way too long text I wrote now. 😓 (I don’t feel bad, cause I learned that’s not so healthy, but I still wanted to say I’m sorry)

My partner was shocked but is also my biggest ally and we have slowly worked through this. Me finally coming out was quite overwhelming for both of us and made for some artificial rift. In hindsight, I think going with a coming out would have also been possible. Just slowly starting my transition in style and behaviour. Why I think this felt like an artificial rift is, because I have always been me. And my partner always new that side of me. That I can now own this and put away the masking is not that big of a change after all.

On bodily transitioning, I feel very similar. I’m anxious of my health and libido.

What I have noticed though is, that while accepting myself as is, I grew a lot better at self care. Before my inner coming out I was always masking a look and behaviour like an armour. After my inner coming out dysphoria was often overwhelming and I gave up hope for myself and didn’t take more that absolutely necessary to be ok looking for work.

It took me 5 years to figure out I can be trans and choose only the transition steps that fit me. Though I strongly felt the need to fit in as what was my understanding of being trans for the longest time.

Now I am surely still not always super happy with my body, but accepting I’m trans helped me a great deal to take good care of myself. And now my slightly more carefully picked look, cuter (but very casual) outfits, and wearing nail polish , give my euphoria from time to time.

I don’t wanna bother you too much, cause whatever transition steps you do, will be your journey. I personally just felt very hollow on many parts of this journey cause I attacked myself for not being “trans enough” which mostly annoys me in hindsight. And now on days or weeks we’re I just can’t really be me (yet) I still know who I am and don’t feel disappointed by myself. 😊

I can highly recommend looking (via queermed) for queer group therapy or similar. This helped me a great deal. 💜

You can happily add me on blahaj.zone Calckey if you feel like staying in touch. 😊

So with pressure this will be a diamond watch in 35 years. xD

Awesome work!! 😊

Yeah, this article makes a great point about how Elon Musk, apart from being a very influential billionaire, is just the perfect stereotype of a toxic, misogynist white male and portrays very well how widespread this type of behaviour is in online gaming.

I think of the original quote in many situations in my life, cause one can paste many things in there. It perfectly fits for transitioning. 💜

Yeah, I knew OPs face from another post, but this looks like your average city court judge who is so fed up with divorce cases and just waiting for the lawyer to shut up, close the case at go home to take care of her kids or her kittens to me.

As for Games I can recommend dawn of war (1) including dark crusade and soul storm. They are old, cheap run on every laptop but are still good games. If you play a different faction in all three campaigns, you’ll have learned a lot about 40k.

Also the first Warhammer Space Marine was awesome, if you are interested in being a 2,5m Space Marine with brutal combat skills and hilariously good weapon sound design in the completely wasted world of 40k for a while.

I liked the Ciaphas Cane books. They are sort of comedic which fits the very ironic world of 40k nicely from my pov. It’s mostly about the imperial guard, but you learn about ca. 2 other Xeno factions in every book.

Gaunts Ghosts is also nice, but very centred at the Imperial Guard, military and (fictional) tactics and good leadership.

The first three books (and also others) of the Horus Heresy are amazing at showing more irony of 40k and very captivating. Though they are mostly about space marines and their chapters.