Kind of bothers me that I am thinking of all the people I know and trying to estimate if they are an LGBTQ Ally or transphobic.
OK, I posted, but I took 10 d6 psychic damage in doing so. 🤣
I've been struggling with the same kind of themes and wanted to share my experience.
Dreams have been bittersweet. On one hand dreams feel light as air and carefree to see myself as femme. On the other hand waking up puts me in a bad dysphoric mood the whole day.
Not woman enough. I've been taking a guerrilla war approach to this one because trying to do it all at once is overwhelming, and the key has been celebrating small victories. Laser hair removal takes time, but every little bit is an incremental victory. My nail painting skills are still trash, but as a result of getting some proper tools and cuticle oil I'm taking better care of them they are stronger and healthier. This theme also reminds me of the pressure others put on us to "prove it," and that we put on ourselves to conform to some type of gender ideal. See The Null HypotheCis for more.
Too late. Yes it would have been nice to figure this out years ago. But wouldn't it be better to live authentically, given that Now is all we have?
And... I love your username. Toughest Starfleet captain, model main character, and a picture of femininity.
Single bead of sweat forms on my forehead, followed by a laser dot.
Speedrun any %, a defense strategy whitepaper on China, without using words "Red, Tiger, Dragon, Sino-, Mao, soft power, 5-year plan, or paper. "
Reagan is in hell waiting for heaven to trickle down.
In retrospect, it's funny to me now that I was feeling afraid and sick to my stomach to the point of shaking and nearly throwing up, and their response was just so relaxed and cool. I asked if they weren't surprised and the answer was no.
Like... WHO AM I FOOLING? ONLY MYSELF? DID EVERYONE ELSE GET THE MEMO FIRST?
Your comment made me realize with new clarity how much male relationships are built on a shock factor comedic antics and edgy humor, which include casual homophobia and misogyny, racism or just generally "punching down."
But also, ick.
Me too female sign emoji hexadecimal, me too.
Hugs.
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I can't see clearly now dysphoria's gone.
I can clear all obstacles to my peace.
We're all our worst critics in our own heads.
Wanna see your bright, bright beautiful smile.
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I'm afraid to ask, but was balding an issue for you? (You mentioned several decades.) And is there anything to be done? I'm having next level dysphoria about my hair right now.
Ugh I feel this one. So many products available to express femininity 😍 just buy buy buy this commodified version of the self 😔
Need to somehow find a balance between hyper consumerism and "It's OK to buy yourself nice things sometimes."