while i can't guarantee great performance without a better idea of your PC specs, if it runs fine on windows for you in all likelihood it should be playable on linux for you too!

i've been playing XIV on endeavourOS for probably the past two years without any major issues i can remember. the only minor thing i've had it do to me lately under some window managers is not properly take focus sometimes on an alt-tab, making it run a little slow until i try it again or raise the window another way.

edit: as far as Bazzite goes i don't have personal experience with it but i've heard good things. if you're new to linux as a whole though, i hear that Linux Mint is probably the easiest to get your feet wet with!

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i've seen FART before. Feminism Appropriating Reactionary Transphobe, i think it stood for.

before i say anything else, i wanna stress that YOU are the only one who can define yourself, and you can take as much time as you need to do so. it's also okay for that definition to change!

i'm also autistic, and my own journey took years to even get started. i knew i was uncomfortable in my body but i could never figure out why, in large part because the language just wasn't available to me at the time. i rely a lot on being able to describe and define things to understand them: all i knew was that "girl" was uncomfortable and "boy" didn't seem right based on what i knew of boys, so i just... left it. for years.

finding out about non-binary identities was like a bomb going off in my head, making so many little connections fall into place. the discomfort i felt all my life came into an almost frightening clarity. with each baby step i took toward claiming that identity and reclaiming myself, i felt better bit by bit. but that didn't mean that i stuck with just non-binary as my identity either: i learned more about myself as i went along!

i went from non-binary/agender to understanding myself as one who experiences fluidity in my gender, running the gamut between feeling like i didn't have one at all to feeling masc-but-not-quite-male, to gender identities that can't really be categorized as masculine or feminine but some harder to define other thing. at first it feels frustrating, because so much of society wants to demand that you just "pick something" when that just isn't reality for some folks!

i encourage you to sit with yourself and think about what makes you happy, first and foremost. what parts of your body you like, what parts you wish you could change, if any. how you like to dress, etc. and a reminder that boys and men are more than welcome to wear dresses and skirts if it makes them happy, transmasculine people included!

i wish you luck while you're questioning. the journey can feel intimidating, but no matter where you end up as you go, you'll know more about yourself, your wants, and needs.

i haven't had any new freckles pop up without being out in the sun, but i have had new moles pop up and they can look like freckles when they're very small! when i noticed it i looked it up and it sounds like moles mostly appear during puberty and so it makes sense that puberty 2 could give you more.