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submitted 2 weeks ago by AnxiousMiisha to c/mtf

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Today didn't go according to plan. To be honest, today was probably my worst day in quite a while. Lots of disappointment and lots of crying. Lots of bad thoughts.
I'm still here. Thankfully I did not hurt myself. I did cry the most I've cried in a long time. Don't know if you can see in the photo, but I have almost like rashes under my eyes from rubbing away way too many tears. God I look bad up close tho 😂

Thank you everyone for your concern. Even though today really sucked, your kind words helped me feel much better. They warmed my heart and showed me that at least, I'm not completely alone in this world.
I'm still on my HRT journey, hoping that one day, I'll feel better about all of myself. One day, I'll look into the mirror and actually see a girl there. One day, I'll take a quick selfie and actually admire it.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you guys, gals and nonbinary pals. You're all awesome 🩷

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[-] happy_wheels 22 points 2 weeks ago

Oh my gosh I'm so happy you're here! I love reading about your journey, both the highs and the lows. You are awesome!!

[-] AnxiousMiisha 16 points 2 weeks ago

Aww, thank you 🩷

I guess this Lemmy account somehow became my personal HRT journal.
Without the fear of someone I know finding me here, I'm really much comfortable talking about some stuff.
For better or for worse...

I do enjoy posting my experiences, even the really bad ones. I hope I can at least provide useful information to someone, even just one person. Probably not, but I'm not giving up! 😆

Anyway, thank you. You're awesome!

[-] akunohana@piefed.blahaj.zone 20 points 2 weeks ago

Thank you for sharing! Your bravery and honesty with yourself is inspiring! 🥰

[-] AzuraTheSpellkissed 17 points 2 weeks ago* (last edited 2 weeks ago)

You are awesome no less. It's lovely how open and honest you are 💜

Brighter days after scheduled right after the bad ones.

[-] GalacticSushi 16 points 2 weeks ago

I'm sorry to hear things didn't go well today, but glad you're here to tell everyone. And don't worry about the crying, it's just part of processing the rough stuff. Don't let anyone's lack of acceptance let you think that you're not valid or don't deserve happiness.

You are loved and we're all happy that you're here. 🩵

[-] AnxiousMiisha 12 points 2 weeks ago

Thank you. Honestly thank you ❤️

Also...nice username. I love sushi!
You just reminded me how hungry I am, I haven't eaten anything today. I don't eat much...

I'll try to take care of myself and recover from this nightmare of a day. Thanks again, kind Sushi stranger!

[-] Bryllyg@piefed.blahaj.zone 12 points 2 weeks ago

Thank you for letting us know. I am so glad you are ok and I hope your days improve. You are making it through and you are stronger than you realize. Big hugs if you want them. 💜

[-] AnxiousMiisha 8 points 2 weeks ago

I won't ever turn down hugs 🩷

and I hope your days improve

Thank you. Me too, honestly. It feels like I exhausted my supply of bad days for the next week just today.
It really took it out of me. Especially since I was looking forward to it so much. Oh well

[-] Bryllyg@piefed.blahaj.zone 7 points 2 weeks ago

There will be waaay better birthday parties.

I mean, now you have the lowest bar, every birthday party after this is statistically going to be way better.

Here are the hugs. 🫂🫂🫂

[-] AnxiousMiisha 5 points 2 weeks ago

Thank you sibling.

Hugs 🫂

[-] Anarki_ 8 points 2 weeks ago

Hell yea sibling. We're right behind you <3

[-] jckwik@discuss.online 6 points 2 weeks ago

💜 you are special and loved

[-] untropvertimide 3 points 1 week ago

Glad to see you feel better.

[-] lwhjp@piefed.blahaj.zone 3 points 1 week ago

I think your outfit looked great. Honestly it suits you and presents really feminine energy. Glad to hear you're looking to the future <3

I don't know how happy you'll be to hear this, but I think you look a lot like Ashley Gavin (I mean it in a good way, honest)

[-] AnxiousMiisha 2 points 1 week ago

Hey, I am happy to hear that. That's quite a compliment! Thank you <3

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