Theres a sappy old movie called Under the tuscan sun. In the film a divorced woman moves to italy. She tries to find love and connection and it fails, over and over. She wanted another wedding, children, a few other things. By the end of the film, she realizes, she helps bring the community together, a young couple meet and fall and love while working on her home, so she gets a wedding, its just not hers, but the couple could have never met if she didnt hire help to fix her home. Her best friend adopts a baby, and I think, ends up moving in because her relationship failed, so she doesnt have her own baby, but will be helping her friend raise a child. There were a few more things like this. Nothing went how she thought it would, and yet, she still sees all she wants in the community she is apart of. She may not be the center, but she is no less important. Its a beautiful way to reframe life in this way.

If you dont have anyone to care for, you must care for yourself right? Finding love in ways you dont expect, can be of some relief I find. To reframe jelousey to joy for others, I imagine, would take some work. A worthy endevour that could relieve suffering. Loneliness sucks, massively. I hope you are doing okay today. Love yourself, cherish yourself. I appreciate you sharing this.

The last sentence is key. I don't think it all revolves around sex, it's just that it's the most obvious feeling, which cannot be easily repressed.

The way you talk make it sound a lot like my own internal monologue when I was depressed. I predict that even if you do find sexual success it will not fill the hole (pun semi intended).

I think you need love, and at this point even the most superficial semblance of love will seem like a cup of water to one crawling through a desert -> hence your focus on the sexual bit.

You somehow (and this is not as trivial as it may read) to learn how to love yourself. It's not an easy task. An important step is making changes, by moving anywhere, keep moving towards slight improvement.

You may run into someone that you can convince of loving you like you do yourself in the long run. To keep in the metaphor, you first need to get yourself out of the desert. Take a sip of water if the possibility presents itself, but unless you get out of the depressed state you won't heal significantly.

It's not easy, I've luckily found someone to share my road with, which makes things significantly easier. I hope you'll manage the same. Get a move on, however tiny the steps.

A male but can some what relate.

I wish if I could help with an advice or some thing. ☹

Uh nice gradient on your profile.

I'm not going to ask you out or sex you tho.

I also feel I want thing I cannot have, though more in general.