I'm doing pretty good. One more week of work before a long overdue vacation. Also finally had a consultation for gender affirming surgery which I am so so excited about. Things looking good at the moment!

Having just a teensy bit of a nervous breakdown reevaluating my life choices the night before a job interview.

Gonna try to get to sleep, though.

I just started Summer Vacation today! Will be going on a hiking trip with my sisters in Norway in a couple of days, can't wait! Hope you all are doing great :)

My annual review morphed into a long meeting where the outcome was all involved realized the position wasn't going to allow me any growth, and they can't just create a higher-paying position for me (10 employees total), and they don't really want automation because what they have requires no training.

On the plus side, no one's really eager for me to go, so I have quite a bit of paid runway. I'd been thinking more over the weekend anyway about how I couldn't honestly say I was enjoying my job anymore, and I guess I hadn't been hiding that as well as I thought.

Now, all I need to do is find a new job while executing an even larger lifestyle change.

Olivia Chow just won the Toronto by-election, so my week is off to a good start :)

Also, Pride was over the weekend, and I got a new bike.

built my first pc a couple days ago :) im really happy with it

Monday. Alarm goes off. Partner says to turn it off cause she set hers for later. She did not.

Cue panic mode.

Partner looks at clock. It is 8:22. Son needs to be at school in 8 minutes. There is a class trip.

We made it. School is across the street.

Came home. Sat on couch and wasted time on internet. At 9:30 my phone pings. Says I have a meeting at 10. I think, "that's a mistake...I work this afternoon".

I check the online schedule. I have meetings all morning from 10 to 1PM.

Cue panic. Shower and eating. Dressed. Run out the door. Exhausted. Hot. No coffee.

Phone dies as I sit down for the first meeting.

Not an awesome start. But, kinda fun in a way.

I partied too hard this last weekend because so many pride parties. I knew artists at 3 gigs and ended up running host/mgr duty for 2 (luckily one had host assigned because it was a bigger venue). I think I ended up at like 7 different parties plus the main parade, I kinda lost count lol. I'm not sick, but I can tell I'm probably gonna be soon. 11/10 worth it, fun fun weekend

Pretty great actually! I just signed the offer letter for a new job and will turn in my notice at my current job later today. I've also been reconnecting with some old friends and was able connect some of them back with each other too. I stayed up a little late playing some games with them last night. It was great hearing everyone goofing around together again, it almost felt llike no time had passed at all

My week is going well.

We adopted a lovely pair of cats at the weekend, who are settling in really well. They're Certified Good Cats.

Milo -

Molly -

I really was dreading work this week. There are a number of large things that are kind of just getting kicked down the road so it’s hard to truly disconnect on the weekends. I have a good plan and support network but it’s just a long road.

Sometimes in life, we have to just accept being uncomfortable and work through it. I have also found a new power in positive self-talk, combining this with meditation has given me some well needed moments of peace of mind.

Starting the fun task of looking for work. Have a few prospects but god i just wish i had another option. Still, im not at risk of being back homeless and i got some time to rest so i should be grateful. I just had hoped i would be more mentally healthy before i had to go back, you know?

Stressing out!! Waiting for my broken car to get fixed, which I can barely afford, and will be fixed... on the day I go in for top surgery... on the 5th of July. So much financial juggling and trying to do things while being scared of getting sick at all.

At least Beehaw is here to decompress with. ~u~

I took next week off from work just because I can and I don't know what I'm going to do. I'd like to make the most of it but I can't decide between doing something really cool and doing nothing at all; both are tempting!

Otherwise, things are going pretty great. I might be able to go full remote at work (which would mean I don't need to quit anymore), and I've prepared a wonderful peach, feta & cucumber salad for lunch.

It's been really nice so far! I got to go to pride over the weekend which was a lot of fun and I'll be having a phone interview for a job tomorrow!

Life has been slow and lately I'm having a bit of self doubt. But today I get to eat dominos pizza, so... I'm happy in the moment. I dunno why but the pizza is just really good to me rn lol.

Prayer circle for my car… hoping to get it back from the shop this week so I can go see my friends for Canada Day!

Mine not so good. I had some problems with my mother and the relationship is not going well. I hope everything goes better with the time or I will be forced to leave home.

Well week 2 of "potentially going to just end up homeless" is pretty shit too. Looked at a house an hour away, it was awful, roof in disrepair, the guy was living in one room and smoking in it after his divorce so the whole house smelled like smoke, there was moss growing in a window. Multiple other issues. Noped out of that one.

Stared at realtor site longer.

One gets listed that's perfect, it meets every single one of our needs and isn't a long commute, we go look, put in an offer. We have the highest offer. Our agent calls saying the realtor says if we can offer a gap coverage if the house appraises lower we'll be close, we can do a small gap (5k) and still have enough to close. She calls back later, apparently they're now between us and another offer, but they have a higher gap so if we can offer 10k and extend closing date we'll probably get it. Talk to family, they say we can borrow 3k if necessary, great we have just enough.

Nope they did the same thing to the other buyer and increased the gap and chose them.

I just want to give up. Fuck all of this, fuck shitty landlords and fuck scummy real estate agents, fuck the housing market, fuck not having enough money, fml

I'm okay... just looking for a job still... depressed...

Turns out I might have either lupus ("it's never lupus", until it is) and/or Sjögren's syndrome. Got a bunch of incredibly expensive blood tests done today (yay universal healthcare. Oh wait the conservatives effectively destroyed it so I have to use private healthcare and I'm uninsurable due to pre-existing conditions) and now I'm just waiting and experiencing nontrivial amounts of dread. Life was already barely worth living what with my existing health issues that already include autoimmune conditions, so this is just icing on the cake

Turbocleaned the house last night, passed out, woke up early. Not sure what I'm going to do now, but I think I'm just going to try and enjoy myself for a bit, as a reward.

Got chipotle today and that makes everything better :)

Otherwise busy with work and procrastinating on everything possible as usual

I think I might be sick. Felt overly exhausted all weekend and had an impossible time today making my brain work

Will be better when it’s over. Last week in a job that my days are numbered in, hopefully the next adventure will be more energising.

By the way, when I upgraded from 0.17.4 to 0.18.0, I noticed the UI for blocking instances changed and was missing my list in the admin panel (still visible on the /instances page). I added a blocked instance and it nuked my entire pre-0.18 list. Might have been a freak accident but it might be worth making a copy of Beehaw’s first just in case. Oh and it’s no longer comma-separated, you have to add them one-by-one

Had a lovely time at a Pride event on Saturday.

Then fell a bit poorly, to the extent my partner just pointed me at the bed and I passed out the previous two nights without raising any fuss.

i am unimaginably sleepy

Hats off to you and the team! May many hours of sleep be bestowed upon you for countless nights to come.

Doing great! Binged 7 episodes of Lost with my husband today after watching Mike’s Mic’s Appropriately Unhinged Recap of Lost S1. Had to get back to it after taking a break from the intense stories

You know... Strikes and gutters

Found a new spot with really good empanadas. 14yo son is going for his first job interview tomorrow. Looking to slow down a little this week.

Trying to find a new place before my lease expires next month. Also trying to find a better job. So altogether, I'm doing.

Taking my hiking group to snow for hiking this weekend. Really looking forward to it

I started therapy recently and after my session yesterday I felt really similar to how I've felt in the past after unloading a lot of my emotions in a giant cry session. I think that means I've unbottled those emotions in a healthier way this time, which is exciting!

Work is still stressful though, but I'll keep getting by.

Feeling good so far: I’m working toward my Salesforce Admin cert and I spent the morning learning about some cool reporting functionalities I never used in my past sales roles.

Also finally finished some severely-delayed Spring cleaning: I gathered a bunch of stuff to throw away a few weeks ago, but got sidetracked and left it sitting by the stairs until my brain labeled it “furniture” and forgot it was there even though it was a giant pile of clutter in plain sight. (Does this happen to anyone else??)

I also went to Trader Joe’s and found a unicorn: a tired, unenthused cashier. But right as I was about to say “you really don’t have to give commentary on my purchases, it’s cool” another cashier ran up and complimented my haircut. Darn it, maybe I’ll escape next time. At least I know jaded Trader Joe’s cashiers exist now.