Having just a teensy bit of a nervous breakdown reevaluating my life choices the night before a job interview.
Gonna try to get to sleep, though.
Using drawing as an example, because that's what I'm used to:
The problem (or good thing) with art is that it's definitely a matter of mindset that lets you improve. See, everyone is a beginner at art!
There's no such thing as an artist that doesn't need to practice. Every artist has to practice gestures, figure drawings, environmental drawings, all those fundamentals that pop up in beginner courses. Eventually, they start to learn shortcuts. They start to memorize specific ways of drawing the torso bent a certain way that pops up in their art a lot. These shortcuts speed up their art, makes it seem like they're a master, but...
They're still beginners. They're skilled, but they're still in the beginning of their journey, because art is a life-long journey. It's something you constantly improve at, constantly decline, constantly go on a roller coaster of failures after failures and success after success.
A beginning itself isn't a failure. Actually, the majority of failed art isn't a failure, because hey---your observation skills are good enough that you know whats wrong in your mind, you just have to figure out the way to get there and improve.
Some people are good at the artist mindset, and some people aren't. It's not a matter of talent, beginners vs pros, so forth. It's just a matter of how you think of self-improvement and how you cope with things.
Not really.
I like witchy stuff but only if its considerable to placebos. A rose quartz bracelet, for example, might not be scientifically going to attract love and good fortune---but its cute and makes me happy, so who knows, THAT might help.
If I had to choose a religion though, I'd probably go with one of those polytheist religions because ever since I was a kid and first went to a church camp, I decided that a singular "God" scares the shit out of me. I basically considered "God" too overpowered and decided that wasn't for me.
Not going well but I am not without hope either.
My mom didn't get approved for social assistance so I'm crunching numbers on our budget for the next month or so.
Brought out the instant pot and made some nice black beans, which I turned into black bean burgers. 😋
Switched from Pop OS to Linux Mint, liking the experience so far. Not as cute as Pop OS was, but I like the interface and the battery alerts and sound effects. So it's not bad.
After roughly five hours of phone calls, on Friday I somehow managed to get a lead on getting my mother back on social assistance. We have an appointment tomorrow for her to apply. I'm hoping that the application actually goes through and we don't once again get told to screw off.
I'm gonna be exhausted this week!! I have so many appointments.
I understand that people have different point of views and all, but I don't understand how a person can, in their right mind, look at a side bar that says "trans and sex worker inclusive" and then post a radfem blog post that manages to simultaneously insult...well, everyone?
I mean, lets start with the fundamental problem of this post: in this post women with vaginas are implied to be too stupid, too docile to possibly want sex with a penis or anything shaped like one. The act is too violent, after all. Ignoring the ton of female dominants, or people who started experimenting before they learned about sex (brush handles can sometimes come in a phallic shape), or the fact that lesbians often enjoy dildos due to the fact that....vaginas just. Are made for that shape. Look at your fingers long enough, and it's phallic!
Not only that, but this poster claims that all their own PIV sexual intercourse was rape by their own definition and it's so insulting. Are you trying to tell me that a child who got raped is in the same category as a consenting adult women? Get out of here and go sit in corner, because clearly you're too stupid for sex.
The House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski. It wasn't scary per say but I had an interesting experience where I had a manic episode reading it, barely slept, and got absolutely obsessed with the idea of it as I read it.
10/10 loved the immersion aspect.
I think I just reported your post not realizing it had a short cut on my keyboard, but in reality I do appreciate the post!!!! I'm Sorry!
Oh definitely. Let's talk about adhd for a second.
So first of all, everyone assumes the only issues it causes is with work and schooling. Once it affects your daily life, That's when allies start to eye you weirdly. Sorry, what do you mean that you can't do laundry right now because of "executive dysfunction"---even kids can do their chores if their parents bug them enough!
Secondly, resources are slim. Books are targeted towards teenagers in school, parents and their unruly kids, parents and their gifted kids...but there sadly isn't as many books on adult ADHD unless it's an organization book!
Next, let's talk about the depression and stress it causes. No one clues into that. Free therapy in my province is targeted towards warped thinking, which is great and all but doesn't help at all when it comes to adhd. I'm not necessarily depressed because I thought of the bad things that are going to happen--I'm depressed because I can't physically bring myself to do something productive right now. It's executive dysfunction, not sadness.
Just got a few books from my local library that I'm excited to start. I'm starting off with "Focused Forward: Navigating the Storms of Adult ADHD" by James M. Ochoa which I picked out because it was the smallest book in the ADHD category, ha.
I also got a book on Linux/Unix, Diabetes, a workbook for Bipolar, a healthy snack book, and an organization book. Not too too sure if I'll be able to finish it all by the time they're due, but its a nice varied selection.
I'm probably gonna be an odd one out here with a cleaning book, but I really, really like K.C Davis's "How to Keep House While Drowning" book about cleaning your house while mentally unwell and not considering yourself a moral failure for the state your house is in.
I think it's the one that had the most amount of positive benefits to my life. It turns out having a positive influence in the form of a book that tries to encourage you take things one step at a time, a book that even admits it doesn't know everything either---well, it's more beneficial than my real life acquaintances and family who opted for the shame method.
My mother got put back on her disability benefits and now I'm hunting down apartments for us to live in to get out of a bad housing situation that we were stuck in because it was cheap and we only had one income.
Got two viewings this week.