they was tryed to fix my gender thru schizophrenia treatment(evrn for schizopheria is too hard)
fluvoxamine 2024 july -> december up to 175mg
alimemazine 2024 july -> august idk dose
risperidone 2024 august -> september (because i tried to start HRT lol) -> prolactinoma(does they fucked my undeveloped breasts? they didmt grow much but also can be genetic)
aripiprazol 2024 september -> december up to 30 mg
promazine -> only two pills, mom decided that is too hard doctor decision
hydroxyzine -> 2024 autumn idk how much since forced
lurasidone -> 2024 december up to 120 mg, stopped 20 mg only 3 months ago
clomipramine -> 2024 december -> 2025 april, up to 75 mg
valproic acid -> 2024 december -> 2026 january, up to 1500 mg
phenibut -> 2024 december -> 2025 march, placebo dose 500mg
hopantenic acid -> dont remember much but def was in 2025 autumn
acetazolamide -> dont remember much
emoxypine -> spring 2025, also autumn 2025
piracetam -> dont remwmber
sertraline -> may 2025 -> still taking and tapering(and feeling only better!)
testosterone -> by body itself from 12 yo up to 15.9 yo
now i still have muscle rigidgy shit idk
i got chemical&psychological CPTSD, thank you mom ~~i will kill you someday~~
i got strong desire to soft recreational drugs by last 7 month, even if i feel good, a very good i still wanna some euphoric chemical(i got addicted to some of bumped drugs? i got damaged receptors from antipsychotics? or its ADHD?) (never did recreational drugs since i strong controlled by parents and govrenment)
tapering "medicines" -> feeling only better
why every right wing "doctor" propaganda scream about forever addiction and tolerance to any drug, but noone doctor screams about forever antipsychptic brain damage?
i tried to fix post-antipsychotic muscle shit via tizanidine which is a2-adrengenic receptor agonist GOT DEVELOPED TOLERANCE IN FEW DAY!!! upped dose, GOT DEVELOPED TOLERANCE again, possibly my a2 receptor damaged by ANTAGONIST antipsychotics(all, lurasidone, risperidone, aripiprazol etc) since that fast tolerance weird for standart doses of this med
how long my brain receptors recovery will take? when my CNS get repaired
sadly cant, i pretty disablish w audhd, i cant properly typical work, get typical education, and its big risk of harrasment not because transness but also because my autistic weirdness(i get harrasment whole life due that)
i cant do fcking bureacracy, i cant gain big money, i cant leave my cats, i cant sadly everything, pretty stuck here w dumb parents which doesnt really desire to leave together especially to west countries
yuh parents get a less n less dumb and getting better, but still i cant get proper understanding from them(i too autistic for lawful neurotypical person)
i cant get proper treatment huuuuh
getting a true psycho meds = impossible, but also inlogical after being bumped by everything
but they prescribe soft russian underresearched antipsychotic alimemazine(neuroleptic as they love say) TO ALL FCKING PATIENTS even w soft depression
antipsychotics to anyone who dont need it
but stimulants are never was legal, so adhd is problematic, adhd is unfun aaaaaaaaa,
ppl get 20 year prison for ordering simple bupropion from internet
from muscle relaxants which i need now, tru science is only tizanidine, clonidine is strong controlled and nobody will prescribe it, baclofen yeah recently, cyclobenzaprin i cant due taking sertraline, usually they prescribe soviet bloc shit such as tolperisone for anyone(fun but is pretty expensive too)