I'm getting established with a new medical provider for the 5th time since getting diagnosed with ADHD in January, and I'm once again between prescriptions, and watching the way it wrecks every aspect of my life hasn't been fun.

I have so much less patience for everyone and everything because my fucking head is full of bees. My emotional regulation is rekt, my communication skills are trash, and it is taking a toll on every aspect of my life and every relationship.

I forgot a major bill less than 48 hours after my husband reminding me of it, and it overdrafted our account. When sorting that out, I discovered another one I had forgotten that thankfully wasn't on autopay, so no overdraft fee there, just a late fee.

I've been unmedicated for only two weeks as of tomorrow. I can't nag these people to help me - I am terrified of being labeled a drug-seeker - but omfg I need my medication back.

At least I can pay the bills when I do remember them, we have a home and enough to eat, my husband is super understanding, and he's not going to fire me from our home business haha so... It could be worse. It could always be worse.

Just really hate my unmedicated self. She has repeatedly ruined my whole life and I don't want her to do it again.