we were very bigoted and racist online, but still liked lesbian relationships, and really wanted to be in one. we saw an artwork of astolfo making out with another boy, and initially thought they were girls. upon learning they were male, we went "oh... honestly, still super hot. wait, i'm a boy, i should do that!"

had a brief coming as a femboy, then fast forward a couple weeks and we do not even identify as male.

we experimented with some feminine clothing we had access to and really loved it. we also thought to the euphoria we felt one time when we were referenced as "daughter" and began to think about what our gender really was. it was still hard to accept that we weren't male, so we opted for the designation of bigender, although genderfluid was probably the better descriptor for what we believed we were hehe (lots of exposure to queer people, but not a lot of actual knowledge at the time). this continued on for a few months. family also being nonbinary made us feel a lot better, even if we didnt talk about it to them for years.

then, we realized that being male just isnt us in any capacity, and after some internal debate we settled on being a girl. we accepted that we weren't even really sure what gender actually is, but dressing femme and being called a girl sounded nice so we went with that.