I can't tell if I'm les or bi. I mean, I feel like I've liked men a lot especially when I was younger, yet lately with all the bad experiences with men and some of them being overly sexual towards me, I can't see myself dating one.

While I do see the beauty of men, I don't know if I'd ever date a man, and mostly I don't find myself attracted towards men. The people I find myself attracted to, even before I know their gender, are always nonbinary masc when they "look masculine", never people who identify as men.

I constantly switch between "maybe I like men" and "I probably don't", which could be me being bi and going through the "bi-cycle", but I also feel like my feeling like I "needed" a man in the past was due to heteronormativity and comphet and every woman around me being bi or straight and preferring men.

I noticed I could never relate to my straight friend who used to bully me, not because she bullied me, but because she would gush over dudes and would hate it when I gushed over women. She also found girls kissing gross but IDK if she still does, we were like 13 when this happened.

Anyway, I could never relate and always wanted to talk about girls and didn't really see men through "rose-coloured glasses" like a lot of girls my age did.

No one can decide this for me, but I need some help...