Hello! Transbian here. I'm resurrecting my alt account since this is rather personal.
I'm looking for stories and anecdotes rather than advice, but any engagement is welcome :3
I came out as a trans woman about a year ago. At that time I was married (to a cis woman), with a daughter. Nothing has changed on that front. Initially my wife's position was that she was only interested in men, would understand if I turned out the same, and we'd better wait to see how things developed.
We've been married nearly 15 years, and a lot of that time has been somewhat strained, mostly since I was extremely unhappy with life in general (guess why) and taking it out on everyone around me. So typical marital relations are very much a thing of the past. TBH I didn't really enjoy them that much anyway (again guess why).
Since transitioning I'm basically a different person now. So much calmer and laid back, and getting on much better with the family. But of course there's still some lingering resentment from things I'd said and done in the past. I've done a lot of reflecting on my sexuality, and I'm pretty sure that I'm only into women (if maybe a bit flexible in the bedroom; we'll see). The question is where we go from here. Maybe it turns out my wife is either closeted bi, or will make an exception for me. Or maybe she's still not interested sexually, and we decide to open things up on that front (not sure how I'd feel about that yet). Or maybe we part ways.
The interesting thing is that I managed to get married at all. Looking back, my dating style was... not very cis male, to say the least. So the fact that my wife even considered me as a viable partner was... curious, on reflection. Possibly a good sign. And recently, (thanks, estrogen!) I've caught her staring at my chest a lot.
Of course I talk with her regularly about things. But I'm holding back a bit at the moment both to avoid overwhelming her with yet more transition stuff, and because I'm not entirely sure how I feel either.
So, er, there must be some other people here in a similar position. How did things go for you?
I realized I might be trans about two months ago, and I told my cis wife who previously thought she was bi, but at that point, I thought she was straight the next day. We spent about a week talking about it on and off while she helped me figure myself out and eventually came to the conclusion that I am. There were another few tear filled days while she was forced to reconsider her sexuality. We have been married for 3 years and together for 10 and are extremely close and in love, but we weren't sure if this would break us. She eventually decided she loves me regardless of if I'm a man or woman and has been helping me with how to girl since. Recently, she was talking to a friend of ours who is ace, and she realized she might be demi because she loves sex and life in general with me, who she has a deep connection with, but she was just there for the ride with anyone else she's slept with. Our outlook is good, I'm into women, especially her, and she's into me, so we'll see where things go.