Yeah, turns out you can't realize your potential when healthcare is restricted. I was "smart" but "needs to try harder", and you really can't just "try harder" your way out of neurological problems.

Turns out that I've got some white matter hyperintensities my neurologist says is scarring from getting abused as a child, and I have a small tumor in my thalamus. I'm due for another MRI to see if the glioma has grown at all, so fingers crossed my insurance situation doesn't change between then and now, because I can't afford it otherwise.