Today someone screamed a slur at me in public for the third time. The 2 times before, they were just driving past, and I thought it was funny in a pathetic way. Today someone else walking in the middle of town screamed Fag at me. He had like a 13 year old kid with him. It felt so much worse than the other times.

I realized I was poly around 2 years ago. For most of the time since then, I was with a partner that wanted to be poly, but just wasn't. Since breaking up, I've had a few hookups with a coworker, but didn't feel like continuing with them.

I currently have crushes on at least 4 different people, but I don't know how to do anything about them. I doubt most of them are open to polyamory, and I'm scared of seeming like a creep. What situations is it even ok to ask someone out?

I was about to make an emotional post, but this is something i actually want to right down first. Stupid rule made me have to actually post something instead of just discarding. I'll do the real post when i understand it

apparently i did something that made some of my friends uncomfortable, and I've heard about it from two of them, but no one is saying what i actually did. I just read and replied to an insane wall of text, part of which was telling me i fucked up somehow and need to fix my behavior, but i literally have no idea how. i don't think i did anything wrong recently or that i jave talked about with the people affected. it kinda just feels like im being attacked for no reason, and im just a mix of confusion and anger because i dont knoww hat i did

i feel like nothing is real anymore