[-] FairycorePhoebe 2 points 3 weeks ago* (last edited 3 weeks ago)

For reference I'm a 23 year old trans woman that has been on hrt for 3 years. I usually don't experience this feeling watching transfem content, but cis women still regularly make me deep envy. If anything trans women are the only women I'm not jealous of lol. The idea that my body wasn't just like that naturally and I have to extensively modify it to even reach a rough approximation can be really upsetting at times. I will admit that a lot of my envy is caused by not their bodies themselves, but the fact that they get to be that way with zero effort or pusback from society. They don't have to take meds to look that way, and nobody is trying to stop them from being women.

I live in the US and the threats to take away trans healthcare or make it prohibitively expensive have only exacerbated my envy of cis women. There's a lot of existential dread surrounding the fact that my femaleness is maintained only by a "benevolent" insurance system where most choose to cover hrt and bottom surgery. They could decide to stop at any point and then I get medically detransitioned. Being cis feels extra privileged at the moment. But yeah, seeing cis women go about their day being happy and beautiful and successful has made me stop consuming certain media and has actually brought me to tears, so I understand the feeling. Seeing cis lesbians in the media is probably the worst for me because I feel some insecurity about being perceived as a "real" lesbian or belonging to that culture.

[-] FairycorePhoebe 34 points 1 month ago

One thing I've learned this election cycle is how few people have any knowledge of utilitarianism. Genocide is better than genocide+1. Not acting is a moral choice, and frequently a cowardly one.

[-] FairycorePhoebe 18 points 2 months ago

Most definitely a 10. Most people would find at least one thing that I like to be morally objectionable. I'm extremely into BDSM, and submissive to a fault. Like, I think that submission is better than sex. If there's a bad thing that can happen to someone, I've probably fantasized about it happening to me. Anything from public humiliation to erotic torture. I also enjoy basically every kind of taboo erotic roleplay. Ageplay, petplay, CNC, you name it. As long as I get to feel submissive and lose control that's all that matters. I'm also aroused by the thought of virtually any human bodily fluid in the right context, although I leave scat, blood, and vomit to fantasy.

In practice though, I'm not nearly as extreme as my fantasies. The kinkiest things I do with any regularity is light bondage, impact play, body worship, and verbal roleplay. My absolute favorite thing though, is humiliation. I remember having humiliation fantasies as young as 5 years old. Most of my kinky desires have some basis in an urge to feel humiliated. I've developed certain kinks solely because I found it particularly embarrassing to have them. Even typing this out this comment with the idea that people will read it and judge me is exciting.

[-] FairycorePhoebe 5 points 4 months ago

I still use a sony walkman to listen to music on cassette tape. Unlike my phone, it has a headphone jack. It's also nice being able to physically own music in such a compact form factor. It helps that the artists I listen to are starting to put their albums on tape as well.

[-] FairycorePhoebe 30 points 4 months ago

I would like to add that a suppressor can render certain specialized firearms nearly silent if they are used in conjunction with subsonic ammunition. A suppressor can deaden the sound of the initial explosion, but a supersonic bullet will continue to create a sonic boom as it flies through the air. A subsonic round doesn't create a sonic boom and as a result nearly all of the sound of firing comes from the initial explosion. If that explosion is well sealed and is funneled through the right supressor, nearly silent operation can be achieved. A good example of this is the Welrod used during World War Two, which was quiter than an airsoft gun and was only really audible at point blank range.

TLDR, how quiet a gun gets with a suppressor is determined by the ammunition, the type of firearm, and type of suppressor. Suppressed gunfire can range from as loud or louder than a nail gun to as quiet as a sneeze.

[-] FairycorePhoebe 18 points 7 months ago

I've been on hrt for 2.5 years with good levels and I've never experienced the fabled girl orgasm. It definitely feels different from how it used too, but I still have the same refractory period, and the feeling is typically still pretty focused on my genitals. It might be slightly more extended through my body and last a little longer, but they also feel less intense than before. Feels more like a sidegrade than an upgrade to be honest.

[-] FairycorePhoebe 6 points 7 months ago

Before transitioning, I was attracted to men and women, maybe even a little biased towards men. My attraction to men sharply dropped off after I began hormone therapy and started feeling like a woman. Now I consider myself exclusively lesbian. My desire for male affection was almost entirely driven by gender dysphoria and a desire to "feel like a woman" romantically and sexually.

My pre transition attraction to women was hampered a lot by the idea that I would be a guy with a girl, and be expected to conform to heterosexual expectations for how a man should date and have sex with a woman. I never wanted to penetrate, and my fantasies about women only extended to oral sex and them penetrating me with toys. When I realized that I could be with a woman as a woman, it was an absolute game changer and I never looked back.

[-] FairycorePhoebe 16 points 8 months ago

This really entirely depends on the woman. I'm a lesbian and I love to orgasm and don't feel satisfied until I do. My girlfriend is the opposite and is more there for the journey. She is indifferent to achieving an orgasm and can be satisfied without one.

[-] FairycorePhoebe 4 points 8 months ago

The metalcore band Harm. IMO better than Spiritbox but only has like 3000 montly listeners on Spotify.

[-] FairycorePhoebe 9 points 10 months ago

As a trans woman who dates t4t, this is basically 50% of their names.

[-] FairycorePhoebe 5 points 11 months ago

I really appreciate strings in general, but no instrument can emotionally move me like the violin. A melancholic violin section in an already sad song is a surefire way to make me tear up. I've never been very good at playing any instrument, but I've been tempted to pick up the violin to see if it feels as good to play as it does to hear.

[-] FairycorePhoebe 10 points 1 year ago

I'm a woman and I'm lesbian for femboys.

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