Wait what's a hunk

I don't get the hate, i think it's a pretty good song ! Better than somebody i used to know

Or both !

Ok 🤝

Don't forget to put words on how you feel with your therapist ! This is the best way to find the "way" to get better :)

Got a huge crashdown in the middle of the week and reach to my long-distance situationship for support. She was super cool and I came out to her. She was very accepting but she hasn't seen physical changes sooo I dunno. We'll see. But I met a trans friend and had a drink together. She's pretty much a guide right now. She's the only trans person I know and she has been for most of her life. So developing a friendship with her means something to me (she's also very cool and nice obviously).

Strangely it did worsen my impostor syndrom for most of the evening. I felt like the eye of Sauron was judging whether I was legitimatly trans, which we can all agree is ridiculous. She even explicitly told me that imposter syndrom is very dangerous, and to be avoided as much as possible. I'm just vulnerable lately. But that was until she told me she clearly saw signs I was trans before I told her and she gave me one of the greatest gift I've ever received in my life : A bible on transidentity that's not printed anymore ("Gender Stories" by Lexie, "Histoires de genre" in original language), wrapped with a film ribbon of a spaceship launching and with a hard label written "Aurore" on it (Dawn in French, my new name !). It was even sealed with a pentagram like a gift from witch to witch hehehe. The film and seal shall be my bookmark, and the label forever in my cardholder.

On the negative side, I missed my train back from the weekend and a queer friend of mine is seemingly not measuring how important this is all to me, despite what she told me... I intended to lean on her for my transition since she did gender studies and all, but I'm slowly assuming these are just a scam. The only other person I knew that did gender studies was just mean and performative :/

My plan for next week : buy clothes, more makeup and stonk my blahaj +++++

Stay safe, don't forget to give news to us ! And reach out for support

Don't forget that guy is about to revive the yellow vest in a few weeks with his very violent and quasi-aristicratic budget. So he knows about dark days

Ruledy pardner 🤠

I feel seen O.O

Thank you for your answer :)

I have read that any trans person is confronted with some kind of impostor syndrom at some point, your anecdote proves that to be true ! I do feel like I trick people/myself at times because I don't feel 100% dysphoria all the time, although I do feel euphoria almost always when I picture myself as a woman. I've read that it's normal, feelings come and go... I suppose since I'm feeling confused, I'm looking for some certainty somewhere :P

See you next week I guess haha I think it's cool to talk about it in this thread, even to put words on how I feel

Questionning, i guess ? Sorry if I'm being confusing, it's just that I'm confused... This is all new to me .-.

To put some context I live with roomates and although I told them I might experiment some things like makeup, it still takes some "social effort" to really do it. Like dressing up, I wouldn't know where and how to start...

On top of that, I still have some kind of impostor syndrom for some reason. The dissonance is tyring, so I just lie in bed, try to read frieren and play caves of qud