I had this one friend named "Samantha", I'll call her. She is a year younger than me but she skipped a grade so we were both in eighth grade last year. She was the "new girl" in fifth grade and we instantly hit it off. She, back then, asked me out and we started dating. Now, we were immature and we broke up since the relationship was toxic, as I had a stubborn, rude personality and she had a sarcastic, mean, and biting one, like saying "Well duh, you think?"/"You're so dumb"/"You'll never survive without me, because you're like a kid" (because of my autism). I was a kid, but that was beside the point. I'm still a kid, I'm only 15.

Anyway, Samantha used to be this energetic lesbian who quoted movies and memes all the time and became a super Christian straight girl who wants a Christian husband and Christian kids. She used to give me stuff all the time, and while she would still hang out with my bullies, even stood up for me despite thinking I was "annoying". However, whenever I talked to her or asked if she wanted to talk, she said "no", so i stopped talking to her because she said she didn't want to because she was always busy.

Well, Samantha became discriminatory, though not as much as the others, due to the crowd she hung out with. They all despised me because I was different. She was pretty anti-transition too and claimed the time where she used to be a lesbian and later a trans boy was "just a phase".

Here's what I have trouble with. They would always run up to each other and join conversations with each other, but it was somehow not okay when I did the same thing? One time, Samantha's best friend "Lia" told me Samantha was upset, but when I asked why, she said "MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS IDIOT! SERIOUSLY, YOU'RE JUST A BRAT PEOPLE PRETEND TO FEEL BAD FOR!!!" and proceeded to say mean things behind my back, thinking I couldn't hear, to Lia.

My family said that's not "just mad" behavior, and that's how someone who hates you acts.

No matter what, I cannot seem to adhere to unwritten rules for things. Everything has to be laid out step-by-step and clearly for me like I'm a robot or something. I hate it. I sometimes can't process language of any kind, not even my own native English to the point where people think I'm a second language speaker.

I can't fit in to any social media, it feels like, except my own communities. I got banned from Reddit once before making a new account and they didn't even tell me why, I just didn't stick to their rules and I don't know exactly the threshold or what the unwritten rules are unless I'm given that super clearly.

I feel like a dumb, beat-up dog. I always have felt that way.

I never fit in at school either. When I talk and try to make friends, I should "mind my own business" and I'm too loud and talkative. When I don't talk at all, I don't get bullied but no one notices me and I'd rather have negative attention than no attention.

People say that I think it's all about me, and whenever I try to find an outlet to express myself, I get called an attention-seeker by people. My therapist says I'm not a narcissist just because I want an outlet and attention, but other people would beg to differ.

Luckily, my friends are all neurodivergent as are my boyfriend and girlfriend who love me. My family doesn't have views I agree with, but they love me too.

I only seem to fit in on my own communities I make, such as my Learn Norwegian community and my Small talk one in Norwegian (Småprat)

«No hablo inglés»?

I’m learning Norwegian and seeing a volleyball game at my school.

:,) Jeg håper jeg ikke er syk

Carmen Espinosa - True to her name, she can be a bit “thorny”. She is a 17-year-old girl, later 18, in her senior year with an abrasive personality. She has a habit of calling people younger than her “kid”. Since she was born on May 2nd, she is one of the younger seniors in her year. While she is a genuinely kind person, she also has anger issues and deep-rooted self-hatred as well as an annoyance towards children due to having to babysit a bratty 8-year-old boy at the age of 15. Due to her annoyance and self-hatred, she takes her anger out on people under the age of 13 and has even been shown bullying them. Despite this, she genuinely does not want to see another kid injured or in danger and says she “hates” it. She is pretty affectionate with her fellow peers, such as jumping up and down and hugging people like Austin and Mika.

While she does seem to like Anya, she knows she can’t have her and her true interest is the Viewer (another senior), who she created the Highschool Harem Hell “saga” for to reach out to them.

(I don't care much that this may make her unlikable, she's supposed to be thorny and a child-hater. Also, this isn't sexual by any means, these characters are all minors [until the seniors turn 18 later], this is just a high school romance story.)

Surely it's a misunderstanding and it has nothing to do with his politics? He's MAGA in case anyone was wondering, a huge Trump defender. Anyway, whenever I tell Grandpa (who I live with) that I want to see the world or go to Germany or Norway on a school trip, or see Norway when I get older with my dad perhaps, he says "Why can't you just stay here?" or "Why can't you visit this country first?"

Then he goes on about how people speak English in America and in Germany and Norway, they speak other languages when I want to learn another language. I want to be fluent in my second and heritage language Norwegian and in German, which I will hopefully become a polyglot in English, Spanish, German, Norwegian and Toki Pona by 2029.

Also, I've told him that I know several monolingual English speakers who went to other non-English speaking countries like Mexico, but he still won't listen and help me save up. (I don't have a job yet and I'm only 15).

Not only this, as much as I love him due to him being family, I don't love his views. He doesn't really like immigrants due to his thinking they all can't speak English. If they speak accented English, he still tells them to "speak English". Maybe he doesn't want to "BECOME the immigrant" (in quotes, because well... we're not Native). Also, I will forever not understand people's hatred towards immigrants and their desire to embrace their home culture in a better country.

Det går bra med meg, men jeg er trøtt. Det var ingen kaffe i huset i dag... :(

Det er den neste dagen, og jeg er fortsatt helt trøtt!!!!!!

I'm currently watching it, I am on Season 1, Episode 10 where

Hei igjen, beklager for at jeg poster så mye :,)

Jeg kjeder meg på skolen

Hi, I’m using this because it’s the instance I’m on right now and I can connect with Scandinavian people and talk about it. I lowkey want to move to Norway or something but anywhere is fine as long as it’s not the USA. Problems? Money, I can’t just move to another country in a snap, and my family is super Trumper and patriotic. They are super against moving to another country and learning another language