[-] Aloomineum@beehaw.org 8 points 4 days ago

I am autistic and in my country I've been told before by my case worker that I qualify for MAID. This cruel world just isn't meant for people like me, and I am now starting the application process for MAID.

[-] Aloomineum@beehaw.org 16 points 2 months ago

We were robbed of a potential masterpiece of horror media.

I eat horror for breakfast, it's one of my favourite genres. Games, movies, novels, comics, you name it. Playing P.T. for the first time was the most unsettling, paranoid, anxiety inducing experience I have ever had in the genre. And the almost hysterical community at the time trying to piece together this demented puzzle was an extra layer of mystery and madness.

Ultimately we don't know what the finished product would have been like, but I have a hard time imagining anything else but a master class in horror.

Kojimas new horror game OD will likely be good, I'm sure. But you can only do a game like P.T. once, and that boat has sailed.

[-] Aloomineum@beehaw.org 19 points 4 months ago* (last edited 4 months ago)

Does anyone remember the Super Mario Land series for Gameboy? This series was so strange, but I still loved playing them on car rides.

The games felt surreal, it seemed so novel playing a mario game where you pilot a submarine and shoot at enemies, or when giant easter island heads are enemies in the game.

It's kind of funny how Mario has evolved over the years, it doesn't sound so out of place anymore. I'm pretty sure there are Moai statue enemies in Mario Odyssey funny enough.

[-] Aloomineum@beehaw.org 8 points 4 months ago* (last edited 4 months ago)

I agree, it is unfortunate it came to that. I really wanted to keep that community in my feed because there is a lot of content worth checking out from there. Ultimately I operate on a 3 strikes policy, and they crossed it so out they go.

[-] Aloomineum@beehaw.org 10 points 4 months ago

Yeah I just blocked the free and open source software page because of the type of conversations they are having and the amount of people "dunking" on boogeymans like SJWs and "wokeness". Yuck.

[-] Aloomineum@beehaw.org 13 points 4 months ago

Thank you, I appreciate comments like this so much. I hope you have a wonderful day.

[-] Aloomineum@beehaw.org 27 points 4 months ago

Unfortunately it seems obvious that PP and his party will win with a majority government. And as an autistic LGBTQ person who already experiences real hate from people in my small town, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared.

[-] Aloomineum@beehaw.org 8 points 4 months ago* (last edited 4 months ago)

Nope wasps were created by satan. They get super aggro during the start of the fall, they get desperate for food and have no problem attacking humans to get it.

[-] Aloomineum@beehaw.org 7 points 8 months ago

I mean, the fact that a subreddit based on making fun of people with disabilities even existed says a lot about reddit, just like dozens of other deplorable subreddits. Unfortunately some of those subs are still around to this day.

I'm sorry you went through this, the internet can be awful. The stuff I used to see on 4chan back in 2005+ was insane. In a lot of ways it hasn't really gotten any better on reddit.

It's alarming that when they rejected you, you doubled down and tried to adhere to their standards to fit in even more. But you were young and toxic groups like those exploit people all the time.

I hope now you understand it is not okay to make fun of disabled people like that.

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submitted 11 months ago* (last edited 11 months ago) by Aloomineum@beehaw.org to c/tabletop@beehaw.org

I've played D&D pretty casually from time to time, but always as a player and usually just short one shots and not big campaigns.

This year I started feeling the urge to play in a big campaign, and some of my friends were showing interest. I decided why not try my hand at DMing! I went all in, I bought 6 books (DMG, PHG, Xanthars guide, tashas, MM, and MotM) a ton of paint supplies, and some tiles/maps.

And I'm glad I did! We've had four sessions so far and it's going great. We are starting on the Lost Mine of Phandelver campaign, and afterwards we will be moving into homebrew, eventually reaching level 12+. I have already started changing a few things from LMoP to fit the homebrew campaign I am planning where the BBeG will be Atropus and its chosen Warlock who is trying to attract the elder evil to Toril.

I didn't have any experience running a campaign, or even painting, but there are so many useful resources on youtube that I feel confident I've got a handle on things!

If anyone has any tips or pointers for a first time DM I'd love to hear them! I am always willing to learn.

If anyone wants to see more of the figures I've painted, heres a couple of pics https://imgur.com/a/1SMF4jr?

[-] Aloomineum@beehaw.org 11 points 11 months ago

Thank you for the response. I agree with you 100%. I used to try and tell myself its not that bad, just block the people being toxic. But in the end it doesn't matter how many you block or report: If there is no consequence to bad behavior, then it encourages that behavior.

I used to think reddit was better than Twitter/X in that regard but I was so wrong.

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submitted 11 months ago* (last edited 11 months ago) by Aloomineum@beehaw.org to c/neurodivergence@beehaw.org

This is a bit of a vent, I'm sorry in advance. I'm still a little bit triggered honestly. If this type of post doesn't fit for this community I apologize, I don't really have anyone to talk to about this.

Reddit has been pushing me away over the past year, mostly because of how antagonistic people are becoming.

The straw that broke the camels back for me was encountering a user with the "r" word in their username, being used in a derogatory way. I am autistic, and that triggers me based on my past experiences. It's a slur against autistic or ND people, and it violates the reddit content policy that states "Users that promote hate based on identity or vulnerability will be banned."

So it turns out on Reddit there is no way to report someone for using slurs in their username. I tried all the other avenues for reporting and nothing worked. I tried to contacting a handful of admins but was ignored over several weeks.

This was all very frustrating for me and I thought I would post about it on the autism subreddit, but I was met with rude responses that boiled down to "Get over it." or "Shut up." I posted on a few other autism related subs and was met with similarily harsh responses. Some of the subreddits actually deleted my post.

I honestly didn't expect that kind of response from other people on the spectrum, and its at this point I realize reddit is unhealthy, regardless of the subreddit.

I have deleted my account and wont look back. I am thankful that a place like beehaw exists, its a shame more spaces online don't try to cultivate a friendly userbase.

[-] Aloomineum@beehaw.org 9 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

I am sorry you have to deal with this too. I think I comment less and less because of those types of interactions, I appreciate you reading my post and responding.

I like your idea of putting some time between myself and the conversations, I have never directly noticed before but I think your right it can make it less scary. Thank you for your advice and kindness.

[-] Aloomineum@beehaw.org 12 points 1 year ago

Thank you for the marching cats, I needed to see something like that. I'm sorry you had to deal with something similar last night. I just wish we could use the internet without the abuse. I will try to remember your advice the next time it happens. I will try to go relax but it is hard to find enjoyment in the things I love when I am feeling down. Thank you for taking the time to read my post and respond.

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submitted 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago) by Aloomineum@beehaw.org to c/askbeehaw@beehaw.org

Some background - I am diagnosed with autism and it can be hard for me to just "ignore" the awful things people can say to me when I'm online.

The latest thing someone said to me really got me feeling down and depressed. Honestly having darker thoughts because of it.

I have IBS-D, which means there is an insane amount of food I cannot eat - if I do eat the things I cannot, my intestines get shredded and I bleed like crazy. Honestly the list is massive and my diet has basically been chicken green beans and potatoes every night for the past 3 years. I have lost over 60 lbs, and currently weigh 130lbs as a 5.11 male. Doctors have been trying to figure it out but they haven't been able to and say I may just have to live with it.

This person was calling me a monster because I eat meat, even though I have a medical condition that makes my diet extremely limited. Unfortunately meat is one of the only things that agrees with my stomach across the board. I'd like to be vegetarian but I literally will die from malnutrition and weight loss if I did try. I explained this to the user but they didn't care.

I explained my autism to them, and that what they were saying was making me depressed and they just continued with saying how I was a monster and killing myself wouldn't be as bad as killing all the animals I have to "enjoy" meat. They said my condition wasn't an excuse and compared me to the "sexual cycle of violence" of dracula.

This user made me feel really sad and crappy. Afterwards I cried for a while but I don't feel better.

The problem I have is that there are many people online who seem to get pleasure from being awful to others, and it gets to me every time.

Does anyone have any advice for handling these situations online? Often I hear people say you should just ignore these people and move on, but I end up ruminating on what they've said and it can make me feel bad for weeks on end. Sometimes I feel like I should just give up using the internet because of these people.

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