I don't want you to die. I feel that need too, the escape that looks like the best solution. But i don't really want to die either. I want things to change around me, i want justice in this world. I want freedom, the real one. Returning to nonexistence is not the same freedom, because you can't feel it. You can't feel satisfied for having written a simple poem expressing your pain, just to yourself. You can't feel proud for going on anothef day. You can't feel nostalgic for the fears of the past. You can't feel worried for a stranger who feels similar pain to you, miles and miles away. Even that is something I'd rather not lose, even if worry it's not considered a so called "positive" emotion

It might seem like you can't feel those things today either, but that's temporary. You have time, and you have needs. Stay true to your needs, honor them, and don't be afraid if you inadvertently discomfort someone chasing them, even if that's yourself. Time + truth = Victory Know what you want, know its value, and escaping will become the last thing you'll ever want.

I hope reading this might help you, writing it is helping me, so thank you for giving me this opportunity, our pain is the fertile ground in which hope can sprout

Man you'll die for sure and once you do you'll never feel bad but doing it yourself it's stupid you know you've already suffered so much just take it longer you got some online friends right? Joke around with them until the actual time comes when you won't be given the choice to see the next moment maybe you'll say to yourself damn that was rough! Or something cool like that suicide is very stupid when you've already suffered beyond bearing beared it bear it more I'm doing the same both of us it's just some years you know the planet will go on for another billions of years trillions and trillions of people will come and go we just one of them why is seeing it till the end so bad when we have seen It to this point it'll never come back the same way ever do justice to your soul the kid that used to be so happy and smiled so bright over little things doesn't deserve his life to be taken it's his we just came in with negativity I'm sprouting nonsense but just trying to tell you that.. you know something something that's funny and and makes you smile once in a while it's enough keep going.