I’m on some total “different wavelength” from everycritter else and will clearly never be understood and when anyone tries to help or connect with me at all they get most everything wrong, sometimes insistently so.

While it may take a long while of searching, I can say that there is someone out there with your wavelength. The ONLY reason I say this is because my sister, after 30+ years of searching for someone who could give her what she needed in a relationship finally found someone who was not only willing, but enthusiastic to be a part of her life in a big way. They are engaged and plan to be wed around this October.

She didn't go hunting on dating apps or social media.. She did what she always did. Played games that have a strong social element, and wasn't afraid to chat about herself directly, her issues, her wants, all of it. I used to call her the impossible girl because of how hopeful she remained after all that time. Most other people I know in that situation would feel hopeless but she kept it up and kept at it.

That being said, I don't know what's right for you and yours, and I hope you're able to find some solace in your situation.