I'm scared to interact on Boost or lemmy or Mastodon or wherever the hell I am because I'm not good at socializing and I feel like my personality is just going to get me kicked off of this here new thing too ....and I have honest to goodness PTSD from trying to socialize. I don't know if I can do the cycle of socializing, kind of getting acquaintances or friends or people that don't mind talking to me, slowly fading out, and then not having friends again , or people just not talking to me anymore and it's really stressing me out and I don't want to get kicked out of anywhere anymore and all I want is some friends and a community and reliability and I'm nothing but a shit show that bothers everyone around me thank you for listening to my ramble the end