I was neurodivergent all this time. It's just people expressed it as there's something odd about that little boy.

The thing is, the more you explore all those microlabels, the more you find things that you're into, which wouldn’t have been explored if you're socially obligated to conform to a standard vanilla norm. Dark identity. (As in dark matter, not who the man is in the dark though there sometimes is that.)

For me, the gateway was major depression. I did a lot of deep diving to understand why I so readily despair even when outlooks appeared to be okay (though on national and global levels there are good justifications for dispair, but that's a different rant) In finding out why I'm so conditioned to Tragic Vampire Romance Island, I find out all my microidentities and kinks along the way.