You should see some of my professional work emails where after proof reading multiples i still end up sending sentences with 20% of the words missing.

You can catch me doing that on lemmy too. And i swear that when i re-read myself i see full sentences with nothing missing.

The thing is, have a cognitive communicate deficit, simply thinking about language feels alien and i have to put alot of effort in translating my actual thoughts into characters yall can understand. My inner monologue is a mix mathematics and images, no words.

I had 2 choice

1. Avoid communicating out of anxiety and stess that people will think less of me because my words (i used to be there)

2. stop caring and assume that most are smart enough to figure it out and respectful enough not to make it into an issue. (Where i am now)

Those that aren't smart enough are unlikely to understand some of the importance nuances i do put in language. (Because half the things i need a word for don't have a known word so its all approximate translations) and those that cant stay respectfull are a bigger problem for society than o’l me.