I think I know what is going on. I've been thinking of posting about this.

I consider myself a anarchist, but mostly in the sense of a philosophy then a mode of government per sey. (Mostly like most things in my life I have a hard time finding a label I like that I feel like fits me, so I just gravitate to something that feels right and will just further explain if I need to)

I see a lot of MLs on here who consider anarchists here spoiled petite bousgouie (no way I'm spelling it right on the new phone. Please excuse my dyslexic ass)

However something I've noticed is a lack of mental heal and psychological analysis when dealing with material conditions.

Most anarchists I know who are more traditional are usually one or more of the following.

Autistic Disabled Queer Racial minority

These people have spent their entire lives at the boot. Being told what to do and to break themselves to be of use of the empire.

Suck it up. Do what's better for the greater good (capitalism). Don't ask questions. Do what your better tells you to do. You are faking it. Your pain doesn't matter.

Now I will say that a lot of the gut reaction to MLs and the theory is reactionary. But its not because they are simping for the ruling class. There is some level of selfishness but not because they don't want to work. Most that I know would love to work and actually work themselves to hard because of a misplaced idea that to be loved they must be useful.

They are scared to change one boot for another and therefore get stuck in a traumatic cycle of not doing anything. Because of the fear, the idea of not only things staying the same or even getting worse, but also becoming the boot themselves.

There is also a very real and understandable fear of betrayal and everyone who is not of the groups mentioned will get out and shut the door behind them. Something that happens to us a lot.

This is inherently reactionary. But its not coming from the same place as the ruling class. Because these people have nothing else to loose really. Or they have very little to loose.

The truth that is very hard to swollow is that you have to have a manner of trust. A trust that people won't turn around as soon as its convient to them.

Its why its so important to the west to have this Red Scare against China. If you know that it works. It's a lot harder to argue against. Because I will say, on it's surface there are elements of ML theory that sounds way to good to be true. People are going to weild power in a way that isn't going to fuck the most vulnerable? Yeah right. Get real.

I've have both been and seen many self proclaimed anarchists who are this way. Dealing with internalized issues that you don't even realize you have.

The problem comes when confronted with actual data that they stay their ground. This is when one changes from having reactionary issues to being a reactionary.

This is me not making excuses per say, but trying to give a explanation as someone who has had to confront this themselves literally weeks ago.