last Monday when I was doing my injections I was in a bit of a rush and forgot to put my sharps container away. next thing you know, my spawnpoint (birthgiver) finds out.
I obviously have to explain why there is a container of my used needles, but I don't tell her the full truth. I explain that it's a prescription, a doctor ordered it, and it's a part of my transition. I called my grandma as well (she's more understanding and accepting) and gave her a slightly better explanation just so she could reassure that it wasn't anything dangerous. my grandma understands I need to explain what HRT actually is on my own terms and I plan to with a session in therapy with spawnpoint.
spawnpoint was very distraught. she said some selfish and downright dangerous things and it took a while for me and my grandma to calm her down. this past week I'm sure that she still feels very hurt about me lying, not listening to her, and not being the me she envisioned, but I really couldn't care less. despite that, I'll try to work on forming some sort of a relationship again, even if it's just being civil for the sake of my brother. my logic is if spawnpoint's wellbeing is solid, she won't try and do something stupid that would would affect him...
spawnpoint wants me to stop the injections and she doesn't know what they actually do, but even if she did I don't think that would change her opinion, so no matter how many times she asks I tell her I'm withholding that information until we get to therapy, which is true.
no matter what happens, I'll always pull myself together and stand up for what's best for me.🤞
besides that, things have been pretty great honestly!!!! I went out and got some new shoes and top to complete an outfit I've been thinking about and I love it so much :3
going out with it today with my other railfan friend!!!! we're gonna be heading to some hotspot stations across NYC and plan to stop by the NYC Transit Museum as well!!! might splice together some clips and pics for my YT channel!!! (@NYMetroSpace if you're interested!!)
bye!!!!!
skipped stops
this weekend has some pretty odd service changes due to track work, so stops are skipped across all lines
Good for you! Your integrity is inspiring.