This might be the best week of my life. I’ve been afraid of other people and of the future for as long as I can remember.

I’ve been working really hard at redecorating my interior and this week I finally hit a huge payoff — real agency in shaping my own perceptions. I can be present and look forward to the future in a real, meaningful way.

I had a great job interview, wonderful times with friends, and positive connections with strangers.

I’ve moved from “what if something bad happens or what if I fuck up?” To “what if I tried this and what if tomorrow is my new best day?”

Also, it turns out one can totally pick their gender, birthday, and family. It’s a good life and I’m happy to finally be open to the experience of that.