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I am desperate (lemmy.ml)
submitted 20 hours ago* (last edited 19 hours ago) by pepperjacques@lemmy.ml to c/mentalhealth@lemmy.world

Need a license, need a car, need to gtfo of this state or country. I have no friends here, no social life, I spend nearly every waking moment alone (either in my rented room or on the porch chainsmoking and occasionally getting drunk off my ass). I walk to work at a fucking gas station that is testing my patience. The times I do talk to friends, it's either playing video games online without much talk or I have to hear about all the cool and social shit one friend in particular experiences regularly. I live in fucking South Carolina in an expensive fucking area where rent is 2k+ a month. I make 14 an hour with incredibly varied hours. I want nothing more than my heart to stop and never have to see another day. I am midlife, but my entire life has been like this for the past 10 years (just in a new area since last year). I need guidance, help, or a rope. I cannot with this shit anymore. I am too tired and too alone to cope with shit. Been trying stoicism, but you can only say, "It is what it is," so many times before suicide is what it is.

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[-] Carnelian@lemmy.world 8 points 18 hours ago

Eh I mean immediately jumping into 60 mins of running every single day is like the recipe for a TMTS injury. Doing a gradual progression is probably better. Assuming OP has safe streets to run and even likes running.

I agree that exercise can be great though. Something to do, endorphins, health benefits, something to track improvement in over time, and so on. Diving into it can be super super grounding in times like these, although I know how cliché it is to suggest and how disheartening and even condescending it can feel. Like “oh you aren’t happy in your capitalist hellscape? Have you tried taking on even more work? Have you considered that you just don’t have the right attitude or aren’t doing the right things to earn happiness?”

At least that’s how it always felt to me when I was in this darkness, and would hear people who were so much better off than me suggest such totally asinine things as taking up running or baking bread.

But these pursuits are actually the most potent act of rebellion you can take against this system that’s fucking us. It is NOT a coincidence that we get home from work feeling run down, like we’ve spun our wheels another day for nothing, like we need some type of release. That release is then sold to us for any amount of money we happen to have; maybe booze, maybe electronics, maybe junk food, you name it. These types of releases are not rejuvenating and you just string yourself along until you next clock in.

The leeches in power want you on this merry go round for the rest of your days. So screw them all.

Devote yourself to some physical hobby they can’t charge you for. Running is an all time classic, I endorse resistance training as well (check out Hybrid Calisthenics on youtube for great progressions you can do with no/minimal equipment if gym access is an issue).

I know it still sounds cringe lol. There’s really no convincing way to get the message across with words. Wishing you all the best OP

[-] BaroqueInMind@piefed.social 1 points 18 hours ago

immediately jumping into 60 mins of running every single day is like the recipe for a TMTS injury

I never said anywhere in my comment anything about running. Where did you get the implication?

[-] Carnelian@lemmy.world 5 points 17 hours ago

Are you feeling alright at the moment friend?

go take a fucking light jog for 30 mins in only one direction, and then turn around and run back.

How can you suggest you never mentioned running when your comment literally explicitly consists of advice to go running?

[-] BaroqueInMind@piefed.social 1 points 16 hours ago

Oops, I meant to say jog back.

[-] Carnelian@lemmy.world 3 points 8 hours ago

This whole exchange has left me quite flabbergasted honestly. The definition of jog is simply to run

[-] BaroqueInMind@piefed.social 1 points 1 hour ago

What's the difference between a light jog and a slow run?

[-] Carnelian@lemmy.world 1 points 43 minutes ago

Would you prefer if I replied to this question or responded to it?

this post was submitted on 06 Oct 2025
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